Hi Growstuff and Oldgimmer1
Actually I choose to sleep in the kitchen - I do have a bedroom downstairs but it is very small and will only take a single bed anyway, so I use it as a dressing room and craft room instead ... my kitchen is quite a big space with my TV and a table in front of me for my computer which is my lifeline sadly, and my bathroom is downstairs anyway so it does suit. I had a wet room installed via a Disabled Facilities Grant, so it does give me what I need and I don't have to go upstairs, which is now a pigsty as DD cannot be bothered to do anything - that will have to change if we go on the market! Over the years I have adapted my very small garden which is all container grown, no grass and is rather lovely - I have no real weeding to do etc I have become a serial dead header, I just need help to clear leaves and algae off the patio and that's it really. The thought of moving all the stuff I have crammed in here and in the garden though is giving me palpitations! I have no idea how the hell I could do it?
It would be very possible to move back to my roots up north, I do still have the odd friend up there and my Mum is still around, but she is 84 and of course will not be around forever, however much I need her - In fact if I did do that I could actually 'upsize' and be mortgage free! However, that would mean that I will lose my very small but pretty good support network, my excellent GP and Surgery my 2 adult children, (neither drive) and my 2 small darling granddaughters who give me an awful lot of pleasure when I am able to get to see them. So that is a non-starter really too. Ideally I need to stay local to where I am now so that my daughter with the MH issue can access the precious racehorses she handles (literally the ONLY thing she will get out of bed for - if for any reason she was unable to do that then she would make more attempts on her life)
Rather stuck between a rock and a hard place it seems!