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Smileless2012 Fri 02-Feb-18 00:11:08

Mr. S. is having surgery next week, a biopsy. He's been having his prostate monitored for, I don't know at least 10 years now.

He had an MRI just before Christmas and they've found a nodule that they're not happy with, hence the biopsy.

I suppose we became complacent, lots of tests but never anything untoward and now this. My head tells me that he'll be OK, if it is anything they've caught it early and he'll be fine. My heart is scared that I might lose him .

We're estranged from our youngest son and only GC. Our DS lives in Oz. His marriage broke up 4 months ago so we haven't said anything about his dad and we wont, unless there's something to say.

We're hugging each other more than we usually do. He keeps buying me yellow roses to cheer me up. Not that I'm letting him know how worried I am. I tell him he'll be fine and I don't let him see me when I cry, when I can hardly breath because I'm so, so afraid.

We've struggled with the loss of our son and GC. We moved 14 months ago and it's been wonderful. Beginning a new chapter in our lives, together. Discovering that there is a life after estrangement, together.

He told me a few weeks ago that he felt as if things were coming to an end. We completed on the sale of our property in Florida yesterday and tonight he told me that neither of us could have managed the sale without the support we give one another. It was a nightmare, the buyers were unbelievably difficult.

I was 16 when we met, 19 when we married; it will be our 38th wedding anniversary this year. He's my whole world, my sun, moon and stars and it's getting harder to wait for the biopsy and the results.

We've had a lovely evening. Out for a meal to celebrate the sale and talking about the things we're going to do, the holidays we plan to have but there's that cloud of uncertainty hanging over us.

We're playing it down with family friends, especially family as we don't want to cause unnecessary alarm and upset. We smile and nod when they say 'don't worry it'll be fine' but I am worried, I'm scared. I haven't told him so and he hasn't told me, but I know he;s scared too.

Lisalou Sat 03-Mar-18 07:38:43

So glad to hear he is so much better, what a relief for you

Lazigirl Fri 02-Mar-18 14:10:11

That's great news and good to have your feedback smiles.

jordana Fri 02-Mar-18 13:58:16

That's good news smiles and as you say, glad the last 3 weeks are past. Onwards and upwards

Smileless2012 Fri 02-Mar-18 13:46:32

Wanted to let you all know the good news; Mr. S. went back to work today and all seems well.

It was a bit touch and go on Monday when the catheter was taken out, it looked for a while as if they'd have to fit another back thank goodness it wasn't necessary.

We can now put the past 3 weeks behind us and it just remains for me to once again thank you all for your kindness and support, from both of usflowers.

Lazigirl Wed 14-Feb-18 16:35:29

That may be how it should work MawBroon but in practice now DNs are so thin on the ground that it doesn't necessarily. We had no help from them, told to go to the surgery, and also to buy inco pads from Sainsbury!

MawBroon Wed 14-Feb-18 13:34:30

If your DH still has his catheter the District Nurse service should be monitoring. So they should have been told when he was discharged from hospital and on your doorstep almost immediately hmm
A letter to the Practice Manager might be called for.

Smileless2012 Wed 14-Feb-18 13:27:03

Actually Iam I didn't know that. We had to get the district nurse out yesterday and when he 'phoned our GP's surgery they didn't seem to know anything about ithmm.

He's having a few problems but is looking more like his old self todaysmile.

grannyqueenie Tue 13-Feb-18 23:39:34

I’m glad to hear that everything is sounding more positive for your husbands health. Best wishes to you both

silverlining48 Tue 13-Feb-18 14:19:54

Good news smileless, so pleased for you and your husband

tinaf1 Tue 13-Feb-18 12:59:36

Pleased things are looking better Smileless hope you can both start to relax a bit now ?

Iam64 Tue 13-Feb-18 12:43:08

That is positive news smileless. Some consultants still follow the old style of writing in detail to the GP but not sending a copy to the patient. Your GP will be able to give you a copy of the letter, or discuss it with you. Apologies if you know this x

Blinko Tue 13-Feb-18 11:35:30

Good news, and I'm glad. It's such a worry though. flowers

Smileless2012 Tue 13-Feb-18 11:10:22

smilesmile We have just received a letter from the hospital and Mr. S. has an appointment with his consultant for April so all must be well.

Thank God and my thanks to all of you for your care and support. It will never be forgotten by either of usflowers.

Yogagirl Mon 12-Feb-18 09:45:01

Only just seen this thread Smileless although you have kept us up to date on 'our' page and we have been 'talking' through pm. As I've already told you, my dad died with pc not because of it, I was shocked when one day he told me he had it, I had had no idea, I hope he hadn't gone through what your dear husband has just gone through, If he had it must have been when we lived overseas, so between 1979 - 1994. He died in 2008 of burst anorisum [the more I try to spell that word blush . So in other words he lived a long time with pc.

Well S this week you should hear from the hospital and hopefully all good news and you can stop worrying.
God Bless flowers

Christinefrance Mon 12-Feb-18 08:27:18

Good luck to both of you smileless hope things improve soon. Concentrate on your husband and put other concerns out of your mind for the time being. You need to deal with the here and now, family problems can wait. flowers

crazyH Sun 11-Feb-18 23:36:22

My thoughts are with you and Mr S....hope all goes well xx

tinaf1 Sun 11-Feb-18 23:22:10

Pleased to hear things look brighter today wish you both well ?

celebgran Sun 11-Feb-18 20:44:46

So relieved to, see Mr S had better night smileless and please try keep me posted we awayntomorrow but will have my mobile wifi may not let me log in here.

Sending ❤️ love and gentle hugs to u both xx

Ambergirl Sun 11-Feb-18 12:13:13

Smileless2012 As others have said. Prostrate problems are common and the fact that this has been monitored and any nodule caught early is a very positive situation. I am sure the other problems you have had with your son and GC in recent years have left with with a gaping hole in your hearts and perhaps a propensity to expect the worst. Sending you positive thoughts for this. Hopefully even if the nodule needs treatment it has been caught nice and early. Treatment and prognosis now is very positive, so try and look forward with positivity, and support each other through this difficult time. Good Luck

Iam64 Sun 11-Feb-18 12:11:17

Sending love and positive thoughts to you and Mr S x

Lazigirl Sun 11-Feb-18 10:57:40

Just seen your post Smileless and really feel for you, very frightening with the bleeding afterwards too. There is some very good advice and support on here. My OH had a biopsy and we were given the result of cancer over the phone. It was truly shocking, and initially felt that this was 'it' and could see no future. How wrong we were. 8 years on he is fine and very low PSA tests. It hadn't spread and he had a prostatectomy (which isn't always done these days) and a catheter for 4 weeks and some urinary incontinence for a few weeks afterwards, so treatment not a bed of roses but worth it in the end. I just wish men were as open to speaking about prostate cancer as women are about breast cancer. We have since had at least 4 friends who have had, and recovered well from prostate cancer, it is in no way a death sentence, but if it was talked about more openly it would be less frightening when men are diagnosed and publicity may increase funding for research and treatment. It is an anxious time for you but hopefully he will recover soon and you will have good news.

Luckygirl Sun 11-Feb-18 10:46:49

Lots of good luck with these new challenges. flowers

Stansgran Sun 11-Feb-18 10:39:58

I've just come across this and really can't think of anything to add that hasn't been said sensibly by everyone else except Bon Courage.

Smileless2012 Sun 11-Feb-18 10:19:39

Thank you. Mr. S. had a better night and is managing very well. I'll do that janeainsworth if I'm at all worried I'll ring the hospital. It's less than 15 minutes away which is a blessing and the staff were all lovely yesterday.

It's such a comfort to know that so many people are thinking of us cornergran.

Your post has helped Blinko, thank you.

Blinko Sun 11-Feb-18 10:02:56

In case it helps at all, I have a friend who has ben living with and managing prostate cancer for nearly six years now. It's one of those that's manageable with drugs and medication, nowadays, I understand.

Hoping for the best for you both flowers