I just wanted to say thank you for all the replies, I dont know how to tag individual people, but replies have given me some welcome perspective. And yes, I am sure my parenting was not perfect either, I guess we do what we think is right at the time, and yes, things have changed.
And they were good parents, they loved us unconditionally, and still do.
They live 4 hours away, so I probably only see them every 3 months, and i usually stay overnight when I go. At the moment we text a few times a day and phone a couple of times a week. We try and have big family get togethers 3 times a year, one of which would be around Christmas, this wont happen this year for obvious reasons, and I always go. I am working over the Christmas 5 days so I couldnt even use this "allowed" window even if I wanted. But they have too many underlying conditions for this to be safe. I have never told anyone any of this, not even my husband, and I probably never will tell anyone. I think my 4 siblings, who are very local, perhaps have unrealistic expectations of what I can do as I am a long way away, I try and do what I can remotely, but I will never be able to do as much as them, especially as I still work fulltime. I will see them, but realistically it wont be until the vaccine, as it is just too unsafe, and I am too far away for a quick visit.
Thank you again for replies x
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Have any of you got all electric cars? Pros and cons please.