I chose to become a Christian when I was 15 with no input whatsoever from anybody else. I remained a Christian for over 20 years until it no longer made much sense and I felt was never allowed to question any of it, even the most bizarre outrageous stories within the religion. I then turned away, was agnostic for a while, was atheist for a while too. I now consider myself to be a Unitarian which allows me to question everything and does not say it is the ultimate and only truth, as many religions do. I think I believe in some greater force, although I no longer believe in this loving God stuff. However, my days of being a Christian are deep rooted as I still believe that I will be punished somehow because I do not believe in God. No matter how I try I simply cannot shake off the concept that I will somehow be overlooked because I won't repent of my 'sins'. The fear that religion can often instil in us is deep rooted and remains a way of controlling us. In many ways religion can be a source of empowerment but in other ways it's a damnation and often impossible to totally shake off.