For many years I was a devout, though always questioning Christian. I never felt God was like a slot machine: 'prayer and belief in = blessings out'. Nor did I thing God responsible for any of the good or evil in the world.
I did believe that if God existed at all, we had been told (by successive religious texts), a load of lies about Him.
Jesus was, in my opinion, a gifted child who grew up to be a gifted healer and a wonderful speaker whose main message was 'live your life with love'.
A Jewish rabbi with whom I studied, told me the name, 'Son of God' was used for many devout scholars of the Jewish texts and not, as the early church decided, that Jesus was the literal (and "immaculate") offspring of God.
Likewise, the word 'virgin' to which we now give a sexual connotation, simply meant an unarried woman. Mary, who was only betrothed to Joseph and not yet married, was therefore a virgin. In those days it was acceptable to be intimate with your betrothed, not shameful.
Emperor Constantine and the Council of Nicaea, decide Jesus was divine - and much more and that started hundred of years of misbelief. The contents of our current bible was decided at that time and the Gnostic Gospels rejected.
Archbishop John Shelby Spong reiterates all this and his books are well worth reading, especially, 'The Sins of Scripture' which explain how generations of Christians have been misled.
He doesn't turn anyone away from God or their own beliefs, on the contrary, he gives a much stonger idea of the kind of God we can accept and believe in.