GagaJo
I was a total failure at school, due to a chaotic home life. Although I was clever I chose to truant. I tormented my PE teachers and was a pain in the a**e.
Did all my learning as an adult when my life was more stable (although impoverished).
think you must be my twin...❤️?
I was always the square peg that didn't fit into the round hole.
Definitely not sporty but for some obscure reason I was popular. Although lord knows why because I always felt like a fish out of water. Despite being smart enough my school days were pretty lacklustre and are best glossed over.
I went to a convent. I loathed it and played truant a lot. I very quickly decided I was an atheist and had no time for religion. This baffled the nuns. I don't think they knew what to do about me, there was just no way I would change my mind and be brought back into the fold. But they were stuck with me. I felt sorry for them,
I pretty much went my own way and they more or less left me to my own devices. When I did deign to show up for lessons I didn't really engage and would just sit at the back of the class quietly day dreaming, reading or sketching or writing awful poetry.
Apparently I had a good voice and was a bit of an asset to the choir. Maybe that's why they put up with me.....lol.
I wasnt disruptive or naughty, just disinterested. . Looking back I think I was just bored. Catholic school just wasn't the right fit.
What I didn't realise at the time and didn't find out until later was the teachers did actually like me and in a funny way admired my rebellious spirit. Not that I was naughty or a trouble maker. I wasn't. My rebellion for what it was was just passive resistance, quietly getting on with my life and ignoring the critics and naysayers.
I had plenty of friends with whom I was always happy to pass the time of day. No enemies. There were a few girls who I hung out with from time to time and had the usual giggles with but no specula or best friend. I never got close to anyone.
When I found out in later years that I was universally liked you could have knocked me down with a feather. Apparently I was pretty much regarded by everyone, teachers and peers alike, as being "rather clever" and something of an eccentric intellectual who they held in awe. . ??. Not that I knew any of that at the time. I was quite astonished when I found out what they had really thought about me. I had just assumed I was a right royal pain in the derrière and that I was pretty much disliked by the teaching staff and was I was merely tolerated by my my classmates
I think I was just those people who is self contained and who just marches to the beat of their own drum. Im not on the autism spectrum, I just preferred to do things in my own way, in my own time. I wouldn't conform and made no attempt to "fit in". Yes I was strong willed and headstrong but I was always polite and charming, I had a few canings for not complying but it made no difference so in the end they gave up and left me alone.
The only teacher who made any headway with me was an English teacher, who wasn't a nun but a lay teacher, I think she recognised a kindred spirit and felt sorry for me. I think I became her project. She was definitely an eccentric, very theatrical and flamboyant. A spinster and a real character. She reminded me of Miss Jean Brodie. . She took me under her wing, quietly directing my reading, lending me books from her own personal collection. None of the books she recommended were on the school curriculum but I devoured them.
She fed my imagination and she did me a great service by showing me that I could educate myself, wherever I was. I didn't need a school building to learn. She gave me the tools for lifelong learning.
I realise now that I was a classic "late bloomer" and that school, certainly not a Catholic school, just wasn't really the environment in which I could flourish.
I got there in the end, becoming a mature student and going to university when I was 40.