Hello sumo Your struggle sounds agonising and in some ways perhaps you thought the gastric band would solve all of this struggle you have on a daily basis. What benefits will you gain from the GB will it take away those hunger pains and the cravings? You have done 1000 calorie diets before I am sure and maybe what you need to help you through is more than food. Will keeping diary on here help? Would talking help you through. So often these cravings are not about food but about what food represents for you. Love, companionship, or maybe food helps you supress emotions of despair, loneliness and so on, what does food and overeating do you for you?
I understand the way you describe the fear of letting go of nice food stuffs, but maybe you could replace that with something else, sometimes just talking helps, fills that empty space that perhaps food fills. You need to find something to do when you feel the cravings. Maybe you have spent so much of your life taking care of others you now have to care more for yourself and you sound as if you don't know where to start.
How can I help? xx
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