Thank you all so much for your messages of support. I will try and get back on here later, as I have to feed the dogs.
I do my very best to keep occupied, to answer a few suggestions above--
yes, my vicar is very approachable, but I hesitate to bother hin too much, as I know there are other people worse off then me. I have made some lovely friends, who are very supportive in church, but I do not see them outside church. I join in church activities, like "Open House" "Friends together" . various course, plus I go to a Home Group. I also help with the church accounts.
I also helped at a centre for "special needs" for 3 years, which I loved-teaching them how to knit, crochet , make cards--it was so rewarding to se a 60 year old, who could not read or write, apart from his name, but he could make a card thast people would buy. But they moved to another village, and I was unable to get there any more.
I also belong to WI, [treasurer for 13 years], Paddara, Historical Society, U£A. Within u3a I belong to a craft group, i also run 2 groups myself, teaching crochet. I also have a Tuesday afternoon craft group, and a Friday night craft group. On top of all that , I have my 2 dogs, cat, a large house and big garden to try and take care of.
Plenty to keep me busy during the day--it is just evenings, early mornings, weekeds that are difficult.
I have something else in mind to try, but I have to wait a while for that.
I have a few good days, then some really bad days, and each time the bad days get worse, and I am in such a spell at the moment. I am worried as to where I will end up, so I phoned my doctor today, but she is off now till Monday !!!
Anyway, thank you all again for your thoughts, and if any of you want to say a little prayer for me, i would love that.