Little man is tucked up in bed 
I am going to get some much needed shut eye soon as have been busy from the first minute he was here lol
Day 4 now and not even had TIME to catch up on here...
He is SO happy to be here ( please see my previous posts if not aware what I am talking about even lol )
He can't seem to believe it and nor can I
We are laughing a lot of course and having fun eg in the park , making cakes , playing in the garden , making new friends etc BUT there IS a bitter sweet side to this unfortunately as he was away so long etc ie his EMOTIONAL well being and the emotional fall out / his healing time , bless him
Is displaying some 'behaviours' like peeing on the floor and spitting etc and he never did this before and is nearly 8 now so I just stayed calm and said ''big boys pee in the toilet'' and he has MOSTLY being doing it in there now especially as I stay calm about it but he is EXTRA clingy and insecure etc and seems VERY worried and anxious he is going to be taken away again / has to go back again , he knows his stuff is here etc but he still seems worried bless him , he is SO happy here yet of course he has FEELINGS even though he cannot fully express them in words due to his Autism so when his frustration and anxiety and anger come up I am encouraging him to hit the settee as it is soft and he NEEDS to get it all out somehow and it seems to really be helping him as he has a good hit of the settee with a very angry look on his face bless him and then a look of RELIEF , a smile , then he is off playing happily again and he even instigates it himself now when the feelings come up inside!!
Reckon he has a lot of anger inside , it seems he has abandonment issues to me and I do want to be that 'soft place for him to land' and be able to FULLY HEAL HERE and feel SECURE and happy of course , but the secure bit is going to take a while as even at school in the morning they end up having to drag him away from me as he is clinging on and I WISH he was with me A LOT SOONER but I can't change that I can only do everything I can to help him heal and overcome his issues etc which I know will put a stop to the behaviours which are going with it / being caused by it so he IS a happy little boy on one hand but he does have some emotional issues to deal with now after everything he has been through 
I believe he will heal though , my heart aches to see him so clingy and insecure as he has been EXTRA clingy ever since he was handed over to me , he has NEVER held my hand SO tightly and keeps holding my hand really tightly and looking into my eyes for signs of ''YES , you are here for GOOD or for as long as needed but back IN the FAMILY again now!''
