Depression 2

Sorry you have had a setback Mishap

Oh mishap, I am sorry. Is your DGC ok now? Because sometimes they are ok and forget to tell us and we are still busy worrying about them.

You need a brain break where the world can't get at you for a while, I think.

Bugger!

Bugger, bugger, bugger, bugger!

I really think that it's time you changed your GN name. I feel sure it's jinxed!

Thank you for your support - it is appreciated. Bugger indeed.

My username was not intended to be a jinx, nor does it relate to unfortunate occurrences. It is simply an amalgam of maiden initials, preceded by Mis(s).

My DGS has had problems for many years and I have done my very best to help them. My DD sent the recording of him in meltdown to seek my help again. I know that she would not have sent it if she realised how vulnerable I still am - I have been lots better, but it is clear that it is a thin layer of wellness. She could not have known that and would hate to think that she had been a factor in my going downhill again. But I hate to think that I cannot go on helping. The poor wee chap sounded so very sad.

Must have been heartbreaking to hear, even more so when you're unable to do much/anything to help.
The 'thin layer of wellness' will repair quickly I hope, x

Your DD didn't know how the video would make you feel, but she obviously values your opinion and judgement. Hold on to that endorsement Mishap it is worth a lot

Spring is coming soon. Lighter nights, Warner days. Leaves on the tress, flowers in the garden. Things being reborn. Hang on in there.

Thanks - I am taking heart from the fact that although I feel low I have been a good deal worse in the past, so hopefully I will be climbing back up from a higher place, if you see what I mean. I have been out walking/limping in the sunshine and trying to fight it.

Hi Mishap how are you feeling today?
Do hope things are a bit better x

Mishap sorry to hear that things aren't so good. Think back to that article I told you about, it had some good advice. Put your (metaphorical) wellies on.

Things are not great today really - lots of weepiness this evening and feeling jittery and weak all day (possibly due to upping the anti-D last night). Saw the CBT person who is offering 16 sessions with a post-traumatic focus. She says that I already doing all the things that might help my depression i.e. getting up and about and going for walks when I feel grim - she said that is what they would advise. It made me feel a bit despondent really as doing these things in no way gets rid of the depression - it is still there. It is just my way of refusing to give in to it. It made me feel that really no-one knows how to make it go away.

I am so sensitive to various drugs that it is hard to know what to do.

It's a cruel illness. I sometimes wonder if it is ever going to leave me alone.

Could you remind me about the article phoenix please? - I am not firing on all cylinders at the moment.

The 3 days of migraine have sent me down the pan - the connection between the migraine and the depression is very clear in my mind. Some of the symptoms overlap - weakness, nausea etc. I think if I could just kill off the migraines I might stand a chance.

The puzzling thing is that I felt so well last week - really almost back to normal - and I have no inkling of what triggered that. It just happened when I woke up one morning. Usually ant-ds produce a steady improvement once they have got into the system - but this was like turning a switch. Being out of control of it is one of the hardest things.

Mishap I see that today is National Time to Talk Day. It is aimed at helping people with depression etc just to talk to someone about how they are feeling. There has been some stuff on TV about it today. I hope it helps you to come on here and 'talk' Mishap.

Please don't despair Mishap I really can't imagine how you feel but you have had some good days and I hope they get more frequent and the bad days start to decrease. You have to believe that and look forward to some improvement. Perhaps if you get the old migraine treatment back on track that will improve the other things.

Thank you everyone for your helpful posts. It certainly is a help to be able to "talk" on gransnet and I am grateful for all the encouragement I receive. I will google the Time to Talk and see what I find. Thank you for flagging that up.

mishap I think from some posts that you have already remembered the article , but if you think it might be of benefit I could find a link to it?

Oh bum, bugger and worse words! Can't find it, perhaps some kind GN'er might be able to help?

Daily Telegraph, Marina (I think) Fogle.