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Such wonderful news Librachick and it was great to hear from you. I'll be thinking of you on the 29th; have a wonderful day with your grandchildren. Thanks for the hug.

Hope there's somefor you all today. Had a great time last night with some friends who came round for a BBQ. Haven't laughed so much for ages which was a welcome relief after such a sad and depressing few weeks.

Looking forward to our week away in the and 'getting away from it all'.for all you lovely ladies.

Oh good see your post libra chick, so pleased you will get spend time with your grand kids. Sorry your daughter was unpleasant though.

You did lot better than us!

Smileless keep strong I know been so hard for you.

At the moment my foot pain has overshadowed most other thing s!
Latest is I have to wait to see specialist before I can have scan, doctors wrote to me apparently on 10 June but I didn't get letter so been waiting In Vain for scan appt! They sent me for xray today and have been referred for physio. So guess they doing best just so horrid in pain all time! Husband got toothache today so been Right misery! Will he ring dentist of take painkillers oh no!

Sorry rant over !

Morning Girls
I'm back from my Yoga Retreat in Turkey, tired but happy, now catching up on here.
Oh Celebgran so sorry to hear how your D has treated you, I know just how you feel
Librachick how wonderful for you, the car hugs I would have died for, but then to be able to take them out on Sunday for the whole day is amazing! Have a wonderful day, I hope the sun shines down on you for the whole lovely event
I'm on the second from last page, so I'll post this & turn to last one......

.............Thought there would be more posts on here
Glad to hear you enjoyed your BBQ Smileless & that you had a good laugh, afterwards, you stop & think; 'Oh, I was happy just then & laughing, how can that be!' enjoy your w/e away too
Celebgran you & your hubby are right pains at the moment aren't you , that was a joke Hope you both get rid of your achs & pains, at least it gets rid of the pain in your heart for a bit
Complete silence on my side, I did send my GC a card from Turkey, saying that; 'the only thing missing here in Turkey, is my darling GC....' so I'm just waiting for it to be posted back through my letter box, all ripped up
I'm off to the 'Concert in the Park' tomorrow evening with 8 friends, hope it dosen't rain
Love to you all & as it's Friday

Sure I did post! Good see you post yogagirl
Glad you home safe from turkey and hope was great time.

I am having another injection on Friday keep everything crossed it works !

We saw elton john yesterday was very good at Colchester near us, strange how everyone wandered round eating drinking and going loo what waste of ticket money! It did rain at start we had good seats but not under cover! Eeek!

Hope smileless ok here is some flowers and
Bless you yogagirl I do that send card to my mollie wonder if she ever sees them?

Celebgran

Thanks yogagirl glad you home safe xx

Dearest Grans

What our children put us through is really heartbreaking.

Thank you all so much for your nice words. I feel really blessed.

We had a fabulous day, only eldest GS and GD came out for the day. 2nd GS wanted to work on the farm with Daddy. Eldest GS said “Mummy told him to come, he’d have fun, and he can work on the farm any time with Daddy”. He also said he really missed us and that everytime they go passed our house, he asks to pop in and see us, but Mummy always says NO, we don't have time. A cone with a flake was £2.80 each, extortionate, but wasn’t bothered. GS could count the total, GD can write and get most words right (activity pack at F&B). Was so chuffed, they’re so clever, but I’m a wee bit biased.

GD said she loved her Christmas present and what a silly Grandma to forget to bring them over. She started school last year, and finished up her first year today for the summer school holidays, she is so tall, so is GS.

The day was fabulous; the weather was great, cloud cover most of the day, but when it wasn’t the sun was very, very hot. The cuddles, kisses and they both wanted to hold our hands all the way around.

We had bought them a camera each, they were so happy with them; they took lots of photos. GS worked out how to use it within about 20 minutes.

We had lots of laughs and I thank God for the day with them.

We went to Frankie and Benny’s on the way home. I was so sad to take them home, wanted to steal them.

celebgran, hope you are feeling a bit better and that you’re getting the help you need. Hope hubby’s toothache has gone. Men!! What are they like?

Sorry to hear about how your daughter treated you, I wonder if they realise how much it breaks our hearts and hurts us so much. Keep your chin up and I hope the visit with your son and his family was good.

Yogagirl, Your Yoga retreat in Turkey sounds really good; hope you’ve come back so relaxed. I do hope that you didn’t get the card for gc posted back through your letter box, all ripped up.

Smileless2012, love 'World's Grumpiest Old Man' card and nice words inside too. Keep strong, it’s a shame that we have to “bounce bank quicker”!

I've texted and asked if we can see them again, she texted back and said "give me some dates", so I texted back "Anytime, we'll take annual leave of if we have too". So will wait a week and see, if nothing then I'll send another text.

I also emailed her this poem.....on 21.06.14 with no subject, no sign off, nothing else

"Estranged" ....A Mother's Day poem

So long ago, I carried you
Feeing your tiny body just under my heart
Smiling when I felt you turn and roll.

Heart pounding, I held you in my arms
Caressed your tiny fingers
Scared of the love I felt.

What if something happens to you?
Should I guard my heart?
Too late...heart's already gone.
I'm crazy for you.

You only wanted Mummy,
Then you only wanted Daddy,
Then you only wanted Mummy,
Then you only wanted Daddy,
Then you only wanted Mummy,

We were your world.

Until you didn't want me anymore.

Today defeated and numb
I say goodbye
To what I wish were true.

I set you free to live your life
to never come back to me.

Do I hope? Always.
Do I wish you'd change? Of course.
Is it likely? No.
Do I regret having you? Never.
Do I forgive you? You didn't ask.
Did I cause the mess in your life? No
Am I happy without you? I'm working on it.
Do I like myself? Getting there.

Do I like you? No
Do I love you?

Always.

To all you fabulous Grans, keep smiling, being nice to yourselves and know that I think of this group very, very often, you gave me salvation when all was bleak. Pity we all live so far away from each other. What would we have done without the Internet.

I wasn't too sure about posting about getting the GC for the day, but H said it might give you lovelies some hope. I hope I didn't upset you.

BIG [hugs], and for all.

Librachick Thank you for sharing your day with us, even though it broke my heart and made me cry to read it. I loved my daughter with all of my heart and soul, I adored her and I never ever did or said anything to hurt her, why would I, I loved her. I loved her children, my precious grandchildren as much as I loved her. I did have a special bond with my Laila (is that wrong to say that?), as I chose her name, she bore my names after her first name and she lived with me before and after her birth, which I was at. I have never endured such pain, it never lessens. Why has God been so cruel to me, I am a good person, a kind and gentle mother/grandmother.

Oh libra lovely message it made. Me cry! Yours too yogagirl

I wonder wether send my Tor that Poem but it only results in upsetting me more I guess.

Want send her photo of Rosie my beloved King Charles who was star pet in local paper I may do as long as don't expect response.

Libra sooooo pleased you had that time with them thanks for giving us all hope! I had 2 more cortisone injections in foot yesterday so fingers crossed !
Hubby tooth settled bless you for asking.

Wonder if smileless is back yet miss her.

Yogagirl you did nothing wrong just like me we are just unlucky one day it may improve. Thinking of you xx

Evening ladies. Well we're back from our last minute week away in Portugal and it was great. Just what the doctor ordered; a week ofgood food and lots of time for one another.

It wasseeing small children our gc age bec. it brings home to you what you're missing out on. I love to hear them talking and laughing, because when I do I close my eyes and imagine that I'm listening to my own darling gc. They're so cute as toddlers aren't they. I wonder if in 10 or so years time when he's nearing his teenage years and wont be so cute, if it will be easier to live with it.

Thank you Librachick for sharing your wonderful day with all of us. Yes, it made me cry but it also made meknowing that you had a such a wonderful day. When you see them again, give each of them an extra hug as a hug from all of us for our own gc that we cannot see.

Glad your Turkish retreat went well Yogagirl. Of course you did nothing wrong; any one simply reading your posts can see what a lovely lady you arefor you.

Hope you're doing OK Celebgran I've missed you too, all of you.

Well, before I went away I signed up for a 12 week intensive course at my gym; 4 sessions a week!!! They tell me that the achieved results are amasing. So, I had my first session this morning, I mean I've been going for 11 months now and didn't expect to find it such tough going. Only 11 weeks and 3 sessions to go. Hope I can make it, what am I saying; hope I manage to survive.

I don't know why, because the last 3 months have been sooo awful which is why we've been away, but it feels good to be back and what's really good is that it's a good feeling to be home. Back with family, friends and all of you lovely grans.

for you all. Have a good week everyone xxxx

Thanks Celebgran & Smileless
I think that too re: GC growing up, think thats why I'm feeling sooo sad, as I know the special time, before they start school is all but over with my Laila & as they grow they are natrually more into their friends than their N&G. I had the work schedule that enabled me to see lots of them, but once they start school it would be the opposite.
I had a lovely evening Saturday at a 'Roaring 20s Party night' the venue was amazing & the entertainment too. I went to a little party yesterday afternoon for a friends b/day, which was nice, left when they started sharing GC pics & cute stories
Very busy week, as covering for fellow Yoga teacher whilst she's on hols, so doing all her classes & mine & one of my 1-2-1 has just come out of hospital after a little op. & wants me to 'pop' round every morning to help her with her physio , so best get my skates on

I ment to put a happy face at the end of that message, just shows where my life is right now, if I always head for the sad face

for you dear Yogagirl

Gosh I can't believe it's been so long since I was on hereand it seems I'm not the only one. I hope it's a sign that every one is doing OK, busily getting on with their lives as they try to move forward.

I'm feeling pretty good at the momentand I hope all of you are too. Miss you all; wouldn't be doing as well as I am if it hadn't been for all of you.

Good see you post smileless, hope yogagirl ok?
I been away Yorkshire for week so out touch.

Phew this heatwave is draining! We had 2 storms since got back but still soooo humid.

We had lovley meal out last night didn't expect much local table table place but food was lovely, restaurant cool, even better we had lovely bottle wine free as was our anniversary last week! It seemed to do the trick!

Happy Sunday all of us x

Happy anniversary for last week Celebgran, how long have you been married. Have someon me.

It's a lovely day here,. We had 4 friends over for a meal last night and had a great time. Finished the second week of my 12 week course at the gym and I'm soooo tired. I struggled to get through it but at least I have today off and, only 10 weeks to go.

Hope you're OK Yoagirl. Have a good Sunday every one.

Smileless you put me to shame with all that gymn !

37 years wed oh dear lifetime!

Is blowing up for another storm here!

Thanks for will drink toast to you and your oh! X

Hope yogagirl ok

Dear Smileless2012 & all other Grans. Just to let you know, we are getting to have all three grandchildren on Sunday. D is allowing us to take them to church and then go to see the Kelpie’s near Falkirk. I will give them lots of hugs and hug them from and for you ladies. Hubby is picking them up at 09:00 then back for 18:00.

We are also getting to take them to 2 shows at the Edinburgh Festival on Friday 8 August. We’re not allowed to have them overnight, but that’s okay, we’re downsizing anyway. Again 09:00 – 18:00. So we will also take them out for lunch and take them on the controversial Trams in Edinburgh.

Yogagirl your roaring 20s Party sounds great. Hope you managed to do your own classes and your colleagues classes too. Hard work. It is very hard when colleagues and friends share photo’s and stories of their GC.

Smileless, glad you enjoyed your Portugal trip. We’re looking at going away in October for 2 weeks, love Portugal. You put me to shame also with all of your Gym pursuits.

Celebgran, I’m loving the heat wave. We went over to Glasgow the day the Commonwealth started on Wednesday, what a fantastic atmosphere there.

Just finished making a corn beef, onion and potato pie . Will go and do veg for hubby coming in. Will eat alfresco tonight.

and and the biggest hugs for all who need it.

So pleased for you Librachick. Long may it continue now that you are seeing the children again.

Wonderful news libra chick so pleased for you.

Let's hope good news happens to rest of us one day also !

Who knows we can only hope and try enjoy our lives best we can.

Have good weekend all x

Well done Rosie for winning star pet! you must be proud of her Celebgran & glad you had good trip away & congratulations on your 37yr ann!!
Thank you for the smiley faces Smileless & nice to hear you had a good trip to Portugal, good luck with the next 10week gym course, rather you then me! & some more needed I think, but don't tell them at the gym!!
Librachick very happy for you, enjoy every minute
I've had some good nights/days out with my friends & ND since I was on here last. I was in a bit of a dark place when I wrote last, but ok now, suppose that's how it goes for all of us on here.
My prev. m.i.l sadly passed away, I went to her funeral on Friday in London, all were there (not estranged D). I made up with everyone that my nasty s.i.l had turned against me, as of cause he has now turned on them as well! I even made peace with my ex! But he visited them yesterday, so not sure if the reconciliation stands, after the visit. But found out some interesting news, they (D&s.i.l) have moved in with his M&D! I don't know when, but that can't be good for relations, they couldn't have paid their rent, yet he has just opened that reptile shop! So things, maybe Karma, are happening!!

Saw a picture of my ex & my darling GC , upset me
as he doesn't care if he sees them or not, (he's visiting from Indonesia).
My little Laila looks Just like my D at that age & little Jack is looking like
his dad (nasty s.I.l)
Not good writing this on my little mobile , so I'll be back later. Tablet broken!

Afternoon ladies. What wonderful news Librachickit's great to hear that you're seeing your gc.

So good to see your post Yogagirl and to know that you've been having some good times with your friends. Sorry to hear about your prev. m.i.l. but pleased to learn that you've made peace with those your s.i.l. had tried to turn against you. Just goes to show doesn't it, how things change when some one finds themselves on the receiving end. Keepbecause may be one day you'll find yourself making peace with your D.

It just isn't fair is it, that your ex who isn't bothered about seeing his gc. can and you, who are so desperate to see them can't.

Hope you're OK Celebgran. No change here but at least there's all this lovely weather to enjoy and we're both definitely getting stronger. Have a great week every one.andto help you along.

Thanks Smileless