Yes im feeling sorry for myself but now i can't shake it off!
Just had a significant birthday.
It was my DH at the end of last year, he wanted to go away in the uk to a well known park. The price was astronomical for all the family so we decided that we would spend that money on accommodation for the family abroad in summer.
My son booked a beautiful house in the uk for everyone for dh birthday and surprised him with it the day before we went.
Lots of prep and secret messages, to get the house decorated with banners etc (which i bought) food delivery for the weekend (me again) a cake (yes me)
Had a lovely weekend.
So we had our family holiday abroad, I'd said a few times that maybe we could get another cheeky week away before school starts (dd works in school and I'm childcare)
At the airport i received a cancellation email for a hospital appt due this week, no reason, just said cancelled. I started to think maybe DH had taken on board and booked a surprise.
So birthday rolled round and all the family can't be together for one reason or another which was really sad.
Had lovely meal with DS who gave me my gifts and a sealed envelope to open on my birthday when we met up with DD and dgc.
DH had told me what he intended buying me, so told me i may as well choose what I wanted.
We did nothing on the day, met dd etc in the eve, as we were leaving dh said 'oh don't forget to take that voucher " which was the sealed envelope 😭
Dd had bought balloons for the table etc
DH used the ones from his surprise to hang up at home.
Don't get me wrong we had a lovely holiday but i just feel my bd was "flat'
The kids tried to make it but even my dd said she felt sad for me.
I've felt s right moody mare this week and need a kick up the backside to snap out of it!
. We all have our 'mardy' moments and there's nothing wrong with that 
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