Anxiety

If "nothing appeals" at the moment, that is often a sign of depression - not being able to take pleasure in anything. Anxiety and depression often go hand in hand. GP should be able to help.

Having such weight on your shoulders... I do not join anything either. But I do find my garden is my happy place... I also listen to quizzes. I used to get very down and anxious due to stress. So I had to limit stress, when the doctor said I had cancer many years ago. I battled that and survived. Was so pleased I was still here that I volunteer ed on the Samaritans telephone line for a while. I realised how easy it is to be always available for family who dumped their problems on me and walked away feeling better. Could your DD you spend the day with listen to your worries for a while

Fuchsiarose
That's perhaps part of the issue. I don't have any "interests" etc
I'm not a joining group type person. I spend a lot of my time out of work with my DD, so obv spend a lot of time talking about what's going on in her life. Strangely I feel better tho at these times as I can actually see that she is ok or not as the case may be. It's worse when I don't see her and just get anguished phone calls or messages. She never messages her Dad, I think he gets annoyed by this and this is why he refuses to engage to try to help with her current situation.
I do like to read, but I have a pile of books by the bed that I have no patience to start.
Nothing appeals at the moment.

It's not always easy to shrug off. I know what people coming to me with their problems does to us long term. Put yourself first, spend time with headphones and chilled music. Shut everything out twice a day. A friend of mine had her H build a room on the side of the house as her chill pad. Not always a room needed. A garden rotunda or shed just for you. Be creative with your time and interests. Your quality of life matters. Take care

Thankyou all.
I'm just so tired, I could just lie on the bed all day.
Instead I'm carrying on, trying my best but with this horrible feeling of dread inside me constantly.
I'm trying to support my Daughter as I've posted on another thread and it's literally all I can think about.
Now even the smallest thing sends me into a panic.
I've started to take valerian recently and go through bottles of lavender and sleep spray!
My Husband won't listen, it makes him angry if I broach my worries and feelings, he says he's sick of hearing it ?
I had a similar episode before when my GS was poorly in hospital as a newborn but I seemed to move on from that and the GP just signed me off work for a while.
Its the feeling of constant panic that is just exhausting.

I too am feeling depressed and anxious, don't sleep very well either, so I know exactly how you feel, PTWN it's awful isn`t
it? I have suffered from depression most of my life so am
already taking antidepressives. I have two daughters that never visit, one is a functioning (sort of) alcoholic and the other blames me for an unhappy childhood, though for the life of me I cannot see why, she was looked after, given most things. she wanted and loved. Hope you will feel better soon
I do hope you go and see your GP.

I am sorry that you are feeling like this. It can be so debilitating; and the fact that your OH is less than sympathetic will not be helping. Some people who have never experienced this find it hard to understand.

I agree that the GP is the way to go because she/he can provide medication to calm your symptoms. You seem to have tried other routes (CBT, meditation etc.) so it may be that you need some medication.

I hope you will be feeling better soon.

Please ring your GP. A friend was like this but didn't believe anything could make a difference to her, and the medication her doctor gave her helped her so much.

PTWN I'm sorry you are feeling this way. It's no fun is it? I too suffer in this way. Mine is due to life events. I've been like it all my life. It came to a head last year and I found myself in the GP's office a sobbing, quivering wreck
Good advice given above. Also there are one or two threads on here under Health which may help you. Good luck.

PTWN it’s all consuming, mine increased about a month into lockdown as I’d lost many distractions. I bit the bullet and had a course of CBT online with Zoom, about ten sessions. This has helped me hugely and left me with some coping strategies, still get the odd ‘down’ day, but they’re rare. My GP was fully supportive and my husband an enormous help. I hope you find some assistance, GP first place to start, wishing you some relief.

Beta blockers work on the physical effects of anxiety. They slow down your heart rate. They work very well and are very safe for most people.
Antidepressants have worked for me.
I'm still a terrible worrier, but they have helped me to keep things in perspective.
Please talk to your GP. There is help available.

See your GP. You might need some temporary medication just to break the cycle of your anxiety.