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I feel a Burden

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TheodoraP Sun 03-Apr-22 10:02:17

Some may know that I have recently become a widow

I have always tried to be a strong person but I have caved since my husband died and feel a complete burden on my loving caring son

He has taken on the task to help me and make me better

He put me in contact with a well recommended therapist and found my local bereavement group for me

He visits me loads and calls and messages me loads too

Wow putting all of this in writing really makes me realise just how much he has done and is still doing all while taking care of his wife that has just given birth to their third child

I feel so bad and such a burden on him

The therapist did help loads. What mainly resonated with me was when he said this too will pass, for some reason I did not apply that mantra to my bereavement But I started to and it helped immensely along with other things that I was doing, meditation etc

The reason I feel a particular burden recently is because I have made the decision to stop seeing the therapist I told my son and I think he is worried that as I have only been two times to see the therapist it is too early to give up doing that, I think that makes him stressed because he is not the type to put any kind of pressure on me or opinionated himself so I feel that I am such a burden to him and I don't want to be what can I do to be less of a burden to him

greenlady102 Sun 10-Apr-22 14:13:05

travelsafar

I understand how this lady feels. None of us want to be a burden to our children or anyone else to come to that. I am missing my husband very much, both emotionally and for his practical help. I had a cataract op and cant drive until i have had my eyes tested in May and get new lenses in my specs. It is so hard trying to manage without the use of the car. I cant go to the gym, do my vountary work or go to a social group i attend. The biggest thing is going shopping. I have people who offer but i dont like to be a burden to them. Today i managed to get to the end of my road and catch the bus into town and go to the supermarket for a few urgent bits i needed. The struggle to get back to the bus stop was awful and i got on the bus eventually so relieved to sit down. Online shopping is no good for me as i dont order enough. I have a dental appoinmtent on Friday so have booked a taxi to take me there. If hubbie was here i would have no worries he would have driven me. Being in this situation has told me how things may be in the future when i cant drive any longer. It has also made me think of the many people who are in this position with no end in sight. At least i know in May i will be able to drive again. We all value our independence and i havent told my children how i am struggling. It has also bought back the loss of my DH , and taken away all the progress i had made since he died. I find myself crying and longing for him. I miss his arms giving me a hug and him telling me everything will be alright. I even miss his grumpy moods when i could have quite cheerfully throttled him. Being in this situation because of my mobility issues has made me think about HR which i should be having later this year, i am really starting to worry about the recovery period and being on my own. Sorry if i have gone off track from the OP but it all just came tumbling out!!!!!

Many many widows and widowers have hip replacements and get over them while living alone. There should be pre op assessment when you can raise these concerns with the team. I used to be part of the pre op support in my area. have you looked at small shop ordering in your area? it might cost a bit more but some of the takeaway delivery firms will also deliver groceries....you can also bulk an order with things to make the amount. I live alone and will buy say a lot of loo rolls on one order and a big pack of laundry detergent the next time. If you don't know which small shops deliver local to you then ask on your local facebook page. You don't have to pour your heart out to your family but you might try asking for a little practical help if they live close enough and you have that sort of relationship. I speak from experience, lost my own husband 10 years ago. I have no kids, its me or nothing!

MissAdventure Sun 10-Apr-22 14:14:08

Probably your son would feel happier with you if you would accept his "fix" by seeing the therapist, I think.
That is supposedly a man thing.
We want to just chat about things, they want to fix it for us.
We like to complain about a work colleague, they want to go and sort them out.

Perhaps you're all a bit fragile, because you've all suffered a loss?

greenlady102 Sun 10-Apr-22 14:14:14

For goodness sake not everybody needs a therapist or counsellor!!!!!!

greenlady102 Sun 10-Apr-22 14:15:13

MissAdventure

Probably your son would feel happier with you if you would accept his "fix" by seeing the therapist, I think.
That is supposedly a man thing.
We want to just chat about things, they want to fix it for us.
We like to complain about a work colleague, they want to go and sort them out.

Perhaps you're all a bit fragile, because you've all suffered a loss?

not a man thing.....I have a female friend who is like this....lovely person but I have to edit what I tell her.

MissAdventure Sun 10-Apr-22 14:19:10

Yes, I get what you mean.
Some people like to jump in with suggestions, when it's nice if they just listen and make "mmmm" noises.