Its two months since my lovely daughter died.

I have been looking at and avoiding this thread all day as I am useless at saying what I feel and would like to convey.
But my heartfelt wishes to you and your family

I hope your holiday brings you a smile or two and puts you a few more steps along the road you are travelling.

Kupari I am so sorry that you are going through this terrible trauma. I have a daughter - and a son - and have so often, as I'm sure many do, tortured myself with the thought of losing one of them. You are living that torture and my heart breaks for you.
(((hugs))) and and wishes for a holiday where you might find some peace and maybe a moment of happiness now and again.

Condolences Kupari45 I hope your very poignant post helped you. Writing feelings down is very cathartic. I'm sure it will help others who are find themselves in a similar sad situation. I too cried at your very moving post. I wish I could say somthing to help but I know at such times words can seem useless. Please remember we are thinking of you and there is somone available on here to read your posts and support and comfort you when you feel the need.

My heart goes out to you Kupari45.

I don't 'know' you, Kupari, but I can't close this thread without saying how sorry I am for your loss.

Kupari, I can't begin to imagine what you're going through. Two months is such a short time since you lost your much- loved daughter. I'm sure others who understand better are right, and things will change given time. I'm sure, as you say, you will never be quite the same person again, but you will adjust to how things are. You will be a different person but will accept life as it has become. It's sad that friends don't let you talk. I think we are not good at listening to others' grief and don't quite know how to handle it. Thank goodness your OH is so supportive and you can be yourself with him. No words really, but sending you
Lots of (((hugs))).

I've just read about your loss, and can't add to what others have said, except I can't imagine the pain.
Hoping the sorrow gradually gets less and you all keep the happy memories of her.
On another forum a 94 year old man wrote about the death of his wife of 70 years, and he said "as long as people still talk about her, she's still around."

Kupari, it does get easier. You're doing all the right things: continuing to talk about her with the family and those who loved her, getting on with your life and making plans. Two months isn't long in the scheme of things, and please don't be shocked or disappointed if you suddenly find yourself laughing and having a good time as though nothing had happened OR you are suddenly overwhelmed by that pain and misery again. Those of us further down the road will tell you that there isn't a straight line from bereavement to recovery, it's a very rocky road and you really don't get over it. But you do cope and carry on. And that's the best tribute you can make to your daughter, carrying on. A big hug and .

Kupari I can't begin to imagine the pain you're all going through. My niece was diagnosed with BC 18 months ago at 30 - thankfully she responded to the treatment and test results have been positive but I know two families who like you have had to face the worst possible outcome. I hope the holiday gives you and your husband some peace.

Gosh, just cried my eyes out at your heartfelt and sad post. This is not much use to you though.
We lost my beautiful niece age twenty and that was hard. My brother and SIl were heart broken . Losing a DD is unimaginably painful. I can only send hugs.

I love my DD more than life itself, my heart goes out to you and your family

Such a heartfelt post. My best wishes to you and all your family on your journey together.

Kupari45, there are no words that will help so here is a {{{ hug }}}