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Bereavement

My beloved child

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Anniebach Wed 01-Nov-17 18:45:42

My beloved daughter took her life in the early hours of this morning.

My first born, my joy, my best friend , my laughter, my tears

I am broken

Annie

Anniebach Thu 09-Nov-17 22:30:51

I need to tell the truth . My three sisters and my nieces and nephews have cut me out of the family, not heard from them since January , so I no longer have my large extended family, hard because most live hear , not even had a phone call from one of them. That's it. There will never be reconciliation, so I have no family, well my brother bless him. So that's how it is and it has caused me such hurt. I do not regret what I said which caused the split and if I had to would say the same again. Thank you all x

Marydoll Thu 09-Nov-17 22:41:26

Annie, I'm so sad for all the sorrows you have in your life. sad

phoenix Thu 09-Nov-17 22:48:23

Wonderful choice of music, Annie , sounds like your daughter will have a very good send off. I wish I had been allowed a bit more input into my son's funeral, sadly it was somewhat hijacked by my ex and his then partner.

It is such a difficult thing, in a first world country we expect to have to bury our parents, but to bury a child is so hard, and not something one ever expects to do.

Swanny Thu 09-Nov-17 22:52:02

Annie xx flowers sunshine

SueDonim Thu 09-Nov-17 23:10:27

Don't worry yourself about what you want to say, just say it. Gransnet has broad shoulders for you to lean on. One of the beauties of internet forums is that they can carry the load that individuals cannot. flowers

gillybob Thu 09-Nov-17 23:22:34

Oh Annie I don't know what to say . Xx

Please don't say anything (on a public
Forum) that might make thing difficult for you in the future. I hope you don't think I'm being insensitive I just don't want anything you might say (today) in grief to come back and hurt you in the future.
Oh I'm hopeless at putting stuff into words ( especially when I'm tired ) .

Wishing you sweet dreams remembering happier times . Xx

cornergran Thu 09-Nov-17 23:44:30

You aren’t hopeless at explaining yourself gilly, or in my view insensitive, I’m sure annie will understand you are trying to protect her.

I’m heartened that so many people cared about your daughter annie and are also being caring of you by expressing their value of her. You’ve been so busy, it’s hard stopping, more thinking space.

Your arrangements are nearly finished so once again please be kind to yourself. Rest even if you struggle with sleep

Sending love and a hope for a peaceful,night.

Bellanonna Thu 09-Nov-17 23:59:56

I’m sending you love, too, Annie and I’m pleased so many on here have urged you to go on posting. As you can see, we are all listening and as somebody else said we’d be far more worried if we didn’t hear from you. Do keep coming on and sharing your thoughts. I personally feel privileged to share them with you X

Jamison Fri 10-Nov-17 00:08:15

Hugs from me Annie, please keep,posting, if it helps even a little.
We would be so worried not to hear from you, hope tonight brings you a little rest, God Bless,

baubles Fri 10-Nov-17 04:59:48

Annie Gransnet has cushioned me in bad times, let us cushion you if we can. There’s always someone here to (virtually) hold your hand, x

Baggs Fri 10-Nov-17 05:39:08

Annie, we want to know how you are and what is troubling you at this sorry time. Sharing triubles sometimes gives ease so do carry on telling us saying what you want to say flowers

Thinking of you too, baubles flowers

Baggs Fri 10-Nov-17 05:39:46

Sorry for the early morning jumble of my words!

Willow500 Fri 10-Nov-17 07:18:50

Annie we are all here for you as everyone says - we don't have the words really to ease your pain but hopefully just knowing you are being thought of by so many helps a little. There is a song out at the moment by someone who recently did the same as your daughter which is heartbreaking - I'm not passing it on but the words echo in my head all the time and are so true - we all care x

kittylester Fri 10-Nov-17 07:27:14

Everyone has said it all Annie - we care for you!

nanaK54 Fri 10-Nov-17 07:33:29

Sending kind and loving thoughts on this new morning

NanKate Fri 10-Nov-17 08:04:49

This poem helped me and I hope it helps you Annie and anyone else who has lost a loved one.

It is taken from Winnie the Pooh by A A Milne

‘If ever there is a tomorrow when we’re not together
There is something you must always remember
You are braver than you believe
Stronger than you seem
And smarter than you think
But the most important thing is,
Even if we are apart
I will always be with you.’

annsixty Fri 10-Nov-17 08:10:51

What a wise and comforting thought Nankate for anyone who has lost a very dear loved one.

Luckygirl Fri 10-Nov-17 08:15:17

Good morning to you Annie - I hope the night brought you some rest for facing the day. x

Iam64 Fri 10-Nov-17 08:21:26

Good Morning Annie, hope you had some rest overnight and that the organisation for your daughter's funeral is helped by your sons in law and brother

Anniebach Fri 10-Nov-17 08:43:42

Thank you all x

NanKate, I adore quotes from Pooh, I made cushions with Pooh quotes for my grandchildren when they moved to university. Thank you.

Willow, it is only the kindness here which got me through the first week

Anniebach Fri 10-Nov-17 10:27:52

Here goes -

Last January I moved house, some may remember what could go wrong did go wrong with the move. The same days as the move my daughter ended up in hospital, I couldn't get there , ward wouldn't discuss her medical condition on the phone. Agreement was made, eldest nephew would travel there, speak to the ward staff relay details to me, I could ask any questions of staff through him. A niece let it slipped my nephew had opened a chat room for the family on face book, I asked him why and he said they were concerned, I asked who was in there, a female cousin my daughter hasn't seen for many a year, a male cousin she last saw at his wedding ten years previously , of all in there only two had ever called to see her. As discussion between my nephew, the hospital and me covered personal medical details of my girl I was upset, asked him not to discuss these details and not to tell them of the conditions she was living in because I was getting cleaners etc in before she was discharged. They were discussing much. Even the state of her home. That my sisters had joined in was too much for me, I told my nephew they could all sod off so they did . One of my g nieces also my daughters Godchild was in the group, she hadn't invited my daughter to her wedding the year before , my daughter was so hurt. My nephew also attends Quaker meetings, I told him to meditation on a verse in the book of St James on the wrong of gossip also told him his ego was greater than his faith. That's it, to be fair I did tell them to sod off and they have. I am distressed it happened but cannot regret protecting my beloved daughter from a gossipy chat room. She deserved to keep what dignity she had left and they were taking it from her.

Sorry another epistle but I owed you an explanation after my post last night.

kittylester Fri 10-Nov-17 10:41:47

You did what you felt was right Annie and, for what it's worth, I would have done the same.

You have such a lot to contend with at present - my heart goes out to you.

I love the pooh quote too. I know it's not real but it cheers me up that a child's character is so wise.

Take care!

cornergran Fri 10-Nov-17 10:48:34

You tried to protect your daughter, annie. I agree with kitty I think I would have done the same. It’s an overwhelmingly difficult time for you. We’re here. Look after yourself as best you can x

gillybob Fri 10-Nov-17 10:53:45

Oh Annnie I think many if might have done exactly the same in the circumstances. Gossiping about someone else's misfortune is the pits of the earth in my opinion .

gillybob Fri 10-Nov-17 10:54:23

Oops don't know where that extra 'n' came from.

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