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Well done for getting through this day.

Thank you for that poem, Maw, I shall save that.

Thank you for that poem, Maw, I shall save that.

Sapphire, you feared you would be sick or have a panic attack but you didn't x . You will experience days when your grief is torture , you will have days of sadness, of longing. It really is taking one day at a time. My husband died over forty years ago, I am now old he is still young , I still have times when I long for his love , when I don't have to face things alone , but these times are not frequent and there is no raw grief. I am thankful I had eight years of marriage to a wonderful man, I wanted more just as those who were married for a long time wanted more. Your pain will ease my love and we are here for you X

Thank you so much for your lovely words of comfort. It's going to be difficult few weeks as there are anniversaries coming up. Our anniversary next week, then a week later my birthday, and DH's birthday next month. I will get through them. What is the saying? Grief is the price you pay for love ; but I am so glad I had his love. I loved and was loved.

It is a privilege to be loved.

Sapphire , hold onto that , I have for all these years x

Sapphire ?

I am ok. I am determined to go on a cruise later this year to scatter some of his ashes at sea, as he was a keen sub-aqua diver and ocean yacht sailor, and it is a ship we have cruised on a couple of times already, so I would feel quite at home on it. My family would not be surprised! He would be pleased and proud of me for doing it. I am trying to keep busy, but there are many moments of absolute grief....

I am late joining this Blue45Sapphire You have now got the funeral behind you...its tough for the next however long it takes. My first husband died at 42. I know its tough even imagining just how you begin to pick the pieces up again....but you WILL do, Something will guide you along be it friends, children or groups like this. Just go with what ever you feel, don't be pressed into anything...just be aware, life really does go on and its not disrespectful to go on...its life, its what happens.

My thoughts are with you

So sorry Sapphire, but you are right. All that your loving DH was still lives on in your hearts and minds. Love never dies ???????

One day at a time sapphire.

The cruise sounds a lovely idea and a fitting place to scatter his ashes. Thinking of you

Our wedding anniversary today, 46 years. I am ok-ish. Went out for lunch with some of my ex-teaching colleagues, had a good gossip and wine. Went out for a walk when I got home, and had a good cry, and am just enjoying a glass of sherry. Just fed my lovely cats and am trying to decide what to have for tea. Glad really that I'm getting all the major anniversaries over within the next few weeks. 19th April our first date, 20th April my birthday, 16th May Mike's birthday. I will try to celebrate each one.

I'm glad you've found some enjoyment in the day, sapphire.
It feels like one step forward, two back, at times.
Enjoy your evening, as best you can.

I can't imagine the pain you're going through but I guess you just HAVE to get through each day

Thinking of you. Well done for getting through it. The next ones may well be harder, but you have made a start.
I felt I was glad that Christmas was so soon after we lost Paw and an element of still being in shock helped get me through.
Mothers Day, my birthday and Easter 4 months on were no easier.
However, onwards and upwards eh?

Oh yes, onwards and upwards, that was my teacher training college motto, and, boy, did we get some stick for it! My two lovely Birman cats have not left me alone since I got home. And one of my ex-teaching friends gave me a mass card - she had had a mass said for DH, and it just touched me so much and gave me comfort that she had thought so much of him.

Glad to hear that you're taking stock and cautiously making plans. Maybe don't rush into the scattering ashes plan? It's possible you might change your mind over the next wee while?
Planning a cruise is a good idea. Its nice to have some sort of 'markers' in as you navigate this year and beyond. Happy to hear you have Birmans. They are great little characters.
Take it easy!

Went to my first rugby match today without DH. Did me good, I shouted as usual (DH never did!). Team played well in first half, but rubbish in second, so came home and drowned my sorrows....... Strange to have an empty seat next to me, but have a lovely couple other side. Have decided to renew my season ticket and just pray that next season is better than this!

Brilliant work!

Good on you! Next season is is bound to be better.

Well, it can't be much worse, could even be relegated!

Fantastic win on Saturday! Now safe from relegation. At least that was something to cheer me up. But then I cried and cried in the evening, and I sobbed in the shower this morning. Every day is bad, but some are less bad than others. Trying to find the instruction book for the lawnmower has kept me busy today - no joy with that, but I found the manual on line and have printed off the relevant pages. Must try and cut the grass this week as the weather is set fair. I am coping, but my heart is breaking.

Keep on keeping on Blue45sapphire. One day at a time. Its all you can do.
Is the cruise booked or are you enjoying the browsing?