I sympathise, during the lockdown time I have been told of four deaths. Three due to the virus and one (the youngest) due to cancer. Two are family members, the other two long-time friends.
Did find it much harder to cope with these at this time, and not being able to go to funerals, or visit to comfort people has made it so much worse.
Having got over the worst few days, I have set my thinking of good times to come, when I can go to see my children and g.children.
2021 is going to be a year full of commemorations and celebrations of life for those that have died this year.
Lizzies, concentrate on good things, do not watch or listen to much news each day - and start to look ahead.
My best wishes to you