I hope talking to us has helped just a little bit morethan, you have been such a rock for the family, perhaps now it’s time to think of yourself. There are no ‘shoulds’ in grief, it’s possible you will all grieve differently and yes, I agree it does sound as if you are experiencing the challenge of PTSD. Would you consider seeking psychological support? CRUSE is a national organisation which could be a source of support as could any experienced bereavement counsellor.
Take a day at a time, try not to have expectations of yourself. My heart goes out to you. Love to you all.
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