Two years ago today my DH died peacefully at home after being diagnosed with terminal cancer of the bile ducts, pancreas and liver . He had a short but severe illness , but he was able to see all family and spend his last days at home.
I really am grateful for those last few weeks and wonder how different it would have been if it had been last year or this year .
It has not been an easy time to cope with the loss of DH after nearly 50 years of marriage, but I can’t imagine how awful it must have been for all those dying over the pandemic .
Tonight I will be alone ( my choice) and will raise a glass to DH and listen to a play list I found the other day on his iPad entitled -especially for “SusieB”-
I will shed tears but also be grateful he had a “good death”’
I hope 2022 will allow me to spread my wings a bit more and perhaps find new interests and see friends old and new . It has been a strange two years but perhaps in a way a more gentle period of grieving allowing me to gradually come to terms with my new life .
My thoughts are with all of you who has experienced a death of a loved one this year .
