hello,sorry i have i think this last year messaged a lot about the loss of my dad oct 17 '22,but i have found comfort in the advice you gave me and your shared experiences.This will be my second christmas without dad and my second birthday without him i am christmas day child,i will be 62 have my own grown up family,husband ,grandchildren but the loss i feel for dad some days i cannot cope with and as yet still not really think he has died,my mum feels the same.I am very busy trying to sort out all the bits he left behind so at least that helps one day i know it will be sorted and i will have time to think,not looking forward to that.
Anyway mum is starting to talk about christmas and yesterday she was looking at a christmas tree when we out,i really don't think i can do christmas again this year,last year got the grandchildren sorted but that was it,i wonder if i am being silly just wanting christmas to not happen,without dad it seems worthless to me,mum says dad would hate to see you like this but i just cannot do it the thought of pretending life is okay is getting to me,how do other people carry on,my husband is happy with whatever we do and he is my best friend,am i ever going to be able to enjoy christmas or anything again without my dad,i just seem to put a face on things but inside a bit of me died with dad.
Sorry a jumble of words bit stressed trying to type.
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