Yes Doodle, it really is hard. Iโm mid two year anniversaries and finding the theory about how challenging this particular anniversary can be, is correct. I still wake with first thoughts about his absence. Iโm blessed with family and friends so canโt say Iโm lonely but I am alone. I miss the living companionship, so many shared as well as separate interests. I canโt imagine a time when I donโt miss him as I try to build a good life (when i. Truth I preferred my old one)