Oopsadaisy3 I have often dreamed of my mum and that I haven`t phoned her when I should have, and she died 50 years ago.. I don`t think I feel particularly sad, otherwise,, but then I/we have never recognised anniversary dates as such. don`t set much store by them if you know what I mean
I am thinking that a lot of grieving, particularly my recent grieving with dh having died nearly 6 months ago,, that I am grieving the lost life we had together.... of course I miss him, but I am a person that tries to understand "stuff" and cos I keep on crying, and even now,, crying, just talking to you all.. thinking it is the lost life that .. oh heck.. I hate this grieving.
I too wish I could be happy and remember good times.. I do talk of my mum, and how she gave me such a good life,, through the war years and after,, she made it all fun, for a child, the war, bombing and death and all that,,, not fun, but I wasn`t filled with dread, she protected me.. but still I grieve for the lost years.
yes, Bluegrass, I think the present stress is telling on all of us, in different ways, perhaps we have kept grieving for our parents away, by getting on with out lives, over busy, now this lockdown is giving us all time to think more and perhaps grieve for a lot of things? just wondering