Marydoll
Good morning all, thank you to those who have missed me posting. I have been quite unwell this week, both physically and emotionally. I had a reaction to my hospital treatment last week and it seems to have triggered a flare up in all my conditions. Life has become full of mountains to climb on a daily basis!
I have agonised for days about whether to say anything or not, some may think my post inappropriate, but I have to get this out of my system.
I have been posting on this thread daily, ( apart from the odd spell in hospital), for six years and have always felt welcome here.
However, recently I have become aware of an undercurrent and being frozen out by certain posters on GN. Unfortunately, it has triggered the long hidden Black Dog deep in my psyche. It has been very subtle and clever, but it's definitely happening. I'm very astute and perceptive and am not imagining it, others have noticed too.
We all want to be liked, don't we? ( However, I do know I irritate some people with my novellas and ramblings, ?). I know that I sound like a silly old fool, but I cannot change my sensitive nature. Those feelings have made it difficult for me to post, as I am aware that what I post is being scrutinised and noted.
I have always tried to treat people on GN as I would like to be treated myself and not be unkind, ( forthright perhaps, but not unkind). and I hope I have done that and am not guilty of upsetting anyone.
Sorry to drag this lovely thread down, but hopefully this will stop speculation about why I haven't posted recently.
I am blessed with having made some lovely, genuine and caring friends on GN, who have always supported me. ( Especially in the last few days) So thank you to all of you lovely people! ?
I won't be stopping posting, but the days of feeling unwell are becoming more frequent, so if I don't post, it just means I'm feeling poorly or wallowing!
I'm not looking for sympathy from posters, ( I'm neither good at receiving sympathy nor compliments) , I just wanted to clear the air.
Have a good day everyone, whatever your plans. many on here have bigger mountains to climb than I have. ?
Surely you need to be reporting anyone you feel has been rude to you? I read the GM thread daily and have done for a long time. I have certainly never noticed anyone posting anything that could cause you offence.