Is this silly of me?

We moved half a mile three years ago from our home of 32 years, where our children were brought up. It was from an old cottage to a modern bungalow. I'm not really interested in what has happened since we left, I am more interested in getting this new home and garden how I want it. Our children understood it was time for us to move. Some friends doing the same thing have had problems from their children who wanted them to stay. A friend in the village is over 90, stuck in a large old house when she would have liked to downsize, but her son who lives miles away is very keen she should stay as he is so attached to the house.

I have a large bungalow, not a true bungalow as split level, rooms opened up downstairs when AD younger and more space needed. Exceptionally large garden.
Widowed six years ago, I’m not planning to move, not a gardener unlike my husband, I now have a gem of a gardener and although it’s too much even for him, I don’t mind my wild bit at the back (in good company with Prince Charles!) and just close my eyes to anything I don’t want to contemplate.
Like Quentin Crisp, maybe lower your standards. As he said
“Don’t try and keep up with the Jones’s, drag them down to your level”?

You are probably like me. I know every little plant and every little corner of our pretty large garden. They become part of your soul, so to speak. I know which plant is doing well, I know which plant is suffering. I just dug up an old, old bush that had suffered from the dryness and it was like losing a friend. I am away from home for a few days and worried what will have happened in the heat because down here we have had no rain for a long time.

I used to dream I was in my old house but knew that the real owners might just find out I was there . I dreamt this so often in different senarios.

We're about to sell our old family home following the death of our mother last Summer. My parents bought the house in the mid 60s and we all grew up there.
I cannot believe someone else will be living here soon. It is so hard to get my head around.
But it will be a different house then because we will have taken our memories with us.