Good morning Mick and all GN's on a still sunny dry morning here in North Yorkshire. Well I say good but it doesnt feel good here! I am in a lot of pain and struggling to do anything much. Was in the bathroom and missed my morning Bach before 7 , which didnt help the day, and not even made a decent coffee yet!!
I have had a horrible night, very little sleep, a lot of pain, and still so fed up about yesterday that I found it difficult to think of anything else, which of course did not help and have not thought of any other solutions yet either. I went and got a small amount of shopping yesterday and the weather looked quite nice with sun out. Was tempted to stay out in the garden, but no , came in and was working my way through all the stuff so that when they came for the dresser there was a clear path and so forth. Rang to confirm date and details for them to pick it up , and when I said it was about 5ft wide she said oh no they could not take it.!!
So at the moment everywhere is a total mess , havent thought of another plan or who else to contact who might like it. Still need to continue sorting it out, but in no state to do it at the moment. Not fit to go far walking, still havent found the key to the yellow peril, and want to get in the shower but not safe to do so yet.
Hmm, not really being my day! I have decided that I am going to get myself sorted, showered and fed etc and then there is a little village where they are doing a "stalls by the walls" at their local church with cakes and bric a brac etc for sale. It starts at 10am so who knows I might actually be dressed and fit to speak to by then!! I cant go down the town, as no yellow peril, the market is on and no where to park the car and couldnt manage to even walk to the coffee shop., but I cant stay in this mess right now. Cant ignore it, but not able to even bend to do anything about it. Just not my day today.
Oh this is when I am very glad to be on here. I always miss my lovely husband who would be full of ideas and at this point he would also have said " oh beggar it , leave it and we willgo out and enjoy some coffee and cake and then come back and start again" or have some brilliant idea of what to do next. Not having anyone to talk to makes things like this worse and most of all it reminds me of the problems I have , and that I cant rush around solving things straight away, as I used to. I feel very useless and upset and near to tears. I HATE not being able to cope , and I dont want to ask for help, well no one else can sort out my things anyway. I am grateful that I can come on here and moan away and know that you all will have experienced days like this and that by tomorrow I will (hopefully!) have regained a bit of control and be in less pain so that my brain will start to work on the situation.
I have an appointment on the 9th to see the diabetic check up nurse, and had already asked the gp if I could be referred to the pain clinic. Things have been getting so bad that I had decided that I must try and get some help. Well at least yesterday that was something. The intelligent nurse that rang me said that I had to see the doctor to arrange that , but she saw that I had an appointment for the diabetic check and had the common sense to arrange the doctors appointment just before that, so it means only one trip to go there, to do both things. Maybe things might improve a bit, but not holding out much hope. Have been to see the physio, who was very nice, but said I was doing all I could myself and he could give me no better advice.
Sorry to be such a misery and hope everyone has a good day. I will come back tomorrow, in a better frame of mind maybe.