Anybody else glad it’s over?

Take care of yourself, maddyone Hope you feel better soon.

Maddyone that is so awful for you, your husband and your mum. I sincerely hope that you feel better soon.
Don’t feel bad Maw you were right to tell us how you feel, it helps us all to know we’re not alone with our crazy mixed up emotions.

Thank you ladies. I wasn’t having a go at you Maw, I’d only read the title and just thought ‘I don’t care.’ I just want to feel better, and I hope you all stay safe. I wouldn’t wish how I feel on anyone.

Maddyone I am so very sorry to hear this but also very angry on your behalf.
I do hope your DH can cope and give you the rest you need - what a nightmare situation.
I feel dreadful about giving in to my own woes now, realising there are many much worse off.
Sincerely wish you a full recovery.

Oh no, Maddyone!
How awful for you all.
I do hope you feel better soon (ish?)

What a horrible thing to happen.

I don’t actually care whether it’s over or not. I’ve contracted Covid as has my husband, because the hospital discharged my mother home saying she was Covid free and didn’t need to self isolate. One day later she was back in hospital and tested positive. In the few hours she was at home my husband visited her. He picked it up and gave it to me and he’s not really too bad, but I feel absolutely dreadful. So I haven’t even opened the presents under the tree.

Lucca You certainly never sound old ugly or useless

Maw, if it’s any consolation I think most of us struggled to keep up the facade of being okay and making the best of it. I at least still have my husband but still was glad to see the back of it all and have cried lots over these past months.
I have great admiration for those of you going through the same emotions but without the strong shoulders of your other half.
Vaccine and hope, longer days and only a few months to spring, daffodils and sunshine will bring us all out of the gloom with open arms ready for those long awaited cuddles.

I too haven't seen my eldest son for two years. I would have seen him this year but for the pandemic. My daughter and gc usually visit before Christmas. They don't like videocalls. So all I got was photos of gc. and phone calls with everyone trying to be jolly!
I too am glad its over. Today was much nicer and just a normal day.
I am so sorry you are feeling so ill and so depressed with it Bluebellwould I hope the op on the 9th January helps and you feel a little better . [flowers ]

I am always glad to get to 1st January and this year especially was hard, I felt depressed all day and had a little weep by the evening.

Bluebellwould what a hard time you're having.
I hope your operation is a success and your health improves soon.

Maw so sorry to hear that you felt like that yesterday. This has been a dreadful year for so many and although I have DH, I miss my family very much.
I must admit to having a good cry yesterday morning when DH went out to deliver presents to his grandchildren. I try to keep my sadness to myself.
I sincerely hope that 2021 is a better year for everyone but especially for those of you who find yourselves alone most of the time.
xx

Like many others, glad when it’s over really. Not just this year, I’m always pleased to get back to normal, whatever ‘normal’ is at the moment.

Lucca ?

BlueBelle

I m always pleased when it’s over

I heartily dislike the so called festive season. Roll on January 2.
Not seen elder son for over two years, had a real weep this evening missing him and feeling thoroughly old ugly and useless !
You’re very brave Mawbe. Best wishes to you.

You have done SO well this year BlueSapphire. It’s great to hear how much stronger you’ve been these last few weeks. x

I was alone yesterday, and I'm glad it's over. I didn't really feel like planning anything this year with Covid, plus I'm in a tiny rented property. I'm going to plan next Christmas really carefully and make sure it's enjoyable whether I'm with my kids or not.

I hope your operation goes well Bluebellwould. I shall keep you in my thoughts on 9 January and hope to hear from you at some stage that you are very much better. You must be anxious right now and reassuring your family when you feel unwell must be hard going. x

Oh Maw, so sorry to hear that. We will get through all this one day I'm sure and there will be happy reunions and occasions and things to look forward to. Just a case of gritting our teeth and putting on the best face until then.

I feel so grateful that my bubble with DD is still intact and that I have company, and that they put up with me. Going home tomorrow and will miss them.

MawBe

Sometimes we try so hard to appear cheerful and upbeat, we need to let it all out. I think you did well to last until bedtime.

I m always pleased when it’s over

I absolutely agree with you Mawbe, this is the worst Christmas I have ever had and trying to look forward is so difficult isn’t it? It’s been two years and two weeks since my husband died and my health is in a perilous state. I can’t eat anything much and what I do eat causes pain. I’m going for an op on 9 January and to be quite honest if I die on the operating table I don’t think I’d really care. The keeping a smile on my face act is becoming even harder to do and being cheerful for my children and grandchildren is so difficult. When people moan about poor presents or there was only two of them for Christmas dinner I get so sad. I was totally on my own like others on here and I can’t even have some chocolate or drink to cheer me up. Let’s hope next year is better for us all.

I think I know where you are coming from MawB. I was in the same situation as you yesterday. The day passed pleasantly with phone/video calls.
At the end of the day there was a feeling of almost relief. Despite all the upbeat tv programmes wishing us a Merry Christmas or was a Christmas like no other with the underlying knowledge that no amount of tinsel could change that. Many friends commented it was fine but it felt strange. For me it wasnt about being alone. It was knowing that my eldest daughter and grandsons hadn't got their Christmas Cards and the hand made scarf I had made my grandson.Fortunately I had posted presents in November but was going to give these in person. No one minds and its certainly not the end of the world but it's a reminder of how different things are. I think the news of the vaccines,and even a potential drug that can stop covid developing are wonderful. Unfortunately for me that is slightly dampened by the news of the two new strains. I think it will take more than a couple of jabs before life is anywhere near normal. I think in all likelihood we are facing a few very difficult months. Christmas is often seen as a period of light in the darkest of winter months. This year that darkness seems a bit darker. Christmas was a bit of a distraction. It did occur to me today that I havent listened actively to any Christmas music whether pop or Carol's. If it's been on it's on but not the usual connection. Maybe I would find it stranger if people told me that they had the best Christmas ever. A time to count blessings yes,a full on celebration? Not sure about that.

I think this has been a rollercoaster of a year for so many of us, in varying degrees.

As you say Maw it’s done & dusted now. You can relax now & let go of the forced cheeriness. That in itself must have been tiring. I’m sure mostly you did it to reassure your family ‘I’m fine, really I am’.

Soon it will be a new year. Let’s all hope 2021 brings us peace of mind and hope for better days ahead. x