Do you ever feel this will never be over?

morethan2

Everyday I have moments when I feel like I’m going completely mad. I can feel a panic rising. I want to cry or drink alcohol until I’m oblivious. I feel as if there’s an impeding doom about to engulf me. I can’t motivate myself to do anything useful. So I listen to music, watch a dvd anything to stop me thinking. I’ve got a husband who comes home and who deserves a clean comfortable home and a decent meal and my love so I focus on that and the fact that my adult children, family and my grandchildren do and will need my support in the future. It’s hard but it’s shoulders to the wheel and keep pushing in the sure knowledge that things will get better in time. The sun still rises, the birds still sing. It’s a beautiful world and one day soon we can all enjoy it again.

Grannmarie I can't find the source so please take that with a fist full of salt

Thanks, Starblaze, I hadn't heard that.

I read that in Germany they are often putting othe death down to the underlying condition, not COVID19. That person had stolen days/months/years in my opinion

Germany's death total of around 2,700 is a fraction of the UK death total of around 9000. I saw a news item last night about the German Air Ambulance Service and their equipment looked like something from the future. Our NHS has been starved of funding for so long.

I've had a few wobbles because one son has an underlying health condition and another is frontline NHS. I've never prayed so much in my life.

Some mornings I say to myself,
'I think I'll have a day in the house today',
as if it's an option and not my new reality.

I hope and pray we'll get through this, one day at a time.

Luckygirl thank you I will, I'm probably daft and worrying for nothing but we have children still working so anxiety overload.

Starblaze - I hope very much that you feel better tomorrow - take care of yourself and please let us know how you are doing.

When I feel down in mood, I recognise that I am mourning what I had and something I felt secure about, because it's suddenly changed forever - and this often makes me sad, or angry by turns.

The whole world has been and will continue to be affected by this murderous virus, long after we are all set free again, and we can't escape from it or run away to somewhere better. So I fear this is always going to make me uneasy; in a similar way to how terrorism has changed so much of the certainties that we had in our lives, a way of living that we embraced and accepted, a life that we know could just be snuffed out, on the whim of a fanatic.

I don't like waiting for any decision to be made for me or my family, unless it's a decision on which we are consulted or that we are able to make ourselves. I do worry that others might just make the wrong decision. However, for this I have to wait patiently and observe all the rules because we live in a society and if we can't think of others in a global emergency like this, then we may as well give up.

And after the figures have stopped rising and life starts up again? I fear that society and the business world as it was will have been so flattened world-wide, that it will possibly be a struggle for many to earn any living and that this may be how life will be for many years to come.

However, for now it is truly a very uncomfortable and surreal experience and anyone who takes the threat seriously must surely feel the same way. Like Harrigran and Callistemon say, we really need that vaccine !

No wonder I look for every opportunity to read something light-hearted or to talk to friends and family who I know will always manage to find something small or ridiculous to laugh about! There's often comfort on this forum - lovely English humour which shines light into days which are destined to be wobbly. We mustn't forget what Winston said - when you're going through hell, you just keep on going !

It will end - Spanish flu ended - but it will not be quick. I think we have to resign ourselves to that. If we are going to get on top of this with the minimum death toll, we have to stick by the rules and accept that a return to normal life will have to be achieved gradually, and that for many at risk people it may meaning waiting for a vaccine before full normality is restored.

I am finding it very hard too - as I know many others are. But I keep having to remind myself of those things that are good - my OH is gone (and he would have found this more than distressing as he suffered from anxiety) and he is spared all this; my children are all well so far; my GC are also well; the sun has been out and all the family have been in their gardens, or walking in a safe place; I am still well; there is lots to do that might not have got done if I had been out and about; two of my friends have had the virus and are recovering well; I have been in the garden all day taking it easy as my back is grumbling at the gardening I have been doing - I know it is a bit Pollyanna, but I find that looking for positives is all I can do. Without that we are sunk.

It will be over one day - but not yet.

It's all it takes is a group of people for it to spread like wildfire. Surely the law will be out in full force.

That's even worse Callistemon because the area will be nearly as big as this country, just one area of the States.

I doubt we'll ever know the true numbers worldwide, Ellan.

I do hope people don't behave stupidly this weekend but I fear they will.

Callistemon, the figures never do add up.

Ellan most of the deaths in America have so far been concentrated in one area.

Why didn't the so-called experts mention testing weeks ago it would have stopped all this uncertainty that people are having to put up with ?
This is typical of Rome burning etc etc.

( thundering here just to add to it )

EllanVannin if you look at the Worldometer site you will see the reported data (mind you, only what is reported by countries) but it also gives relative numbers which gives some perspective.

They did say originally that the peak would start to come at the Easter weekend.

Stay safe.

Growstuff, there could well have been far more if the vaccine itself was duff anyway as every winter we sadly see thousands who succumb. The poor beggars who thought they'd be safe.

I do feel it at times BUT I talk to my Chinese friend, and life is resuming there. Her family are in Wuhan and even there life is restarting.

We’ve let it get a lot worse here though and there’s virtually no testing. Until we do that, we’re f***ed.

The USA has a worse increase in the death rate than the UK. We should be comparing ourselves with other large European countries with similar populations.

EllanVannin 30 is an awful lot less than a few million. In 18 months (or whenever there is a vaccine), there will still be up to about 25 million people who aren't immune and are still vulnerable. If I'm one of the ones who survives, I'll happily take that chance. 30/25,000,000 is quite good odds.

I'm disgusted at the amount of deaths we've seen in this country. What the heck has happened ? It should never have happened that so many have perished. 9,000 and rising !
Half as many as in the USA and compare the size of that country to ours.

It always cheers me up to watch Dr Campbells daily blog; I haven't seen todays yet. We realised we hadn't done the Times quiz for 3 days so just did that. I have a tiny bit of brandy in my coffee at night so I have that to look forward to. One part of our village has a broken sewer pipe so they have these pumps going all day and night [I won't mention the smell]. Thank goodness key workers are still fixing things like that; and I don't live on top of it. It was my grandsons second birthday today; we should have all been on holiday together . On the other hand I always feel stressed about all the things I should be doing so there's something relaxing about not being able to do a lot of things. And I've always had an eating problem; yo yo dieter. I have planned to not leave the house for a long time so I can't overeat so for probably the first time in my life I'm eating healthy, well balanced meals and there's no temptation to have another biscuit or another slice of cake because when it's gone it's gone, and I'm really enjoying my meals. Like whitewave I still can't quite believe this is happening; it's as if I'm on some kind of drug. I can actually close my eyes and be somewhere else so I pretend I'm walking on the beach or I'm in Cornwall walking along the Valency Valley. And I'm doing those breathing exercises in case I do catch it. Can't do much more, really.

Well if it's anything like the pneumonia vaccine it'll do more harm than good as apparently it killed 30 people and didn't work anyway.

It's the consequences that worry me the most Callistemon; the businesses that will never recover and the ensuing job losses, the marriages and relationships that were perhaps fragile before this but will buckle under the strain. And the children's education that has been stalled at critical stages and will have a lasting impact on their futures. It's no wonder so many are struggling to sleep soundly.