Well, I got through it.
Youngest stepson didn't turn up or send flowers. Up to him.
Eldest SS and family rocked up, ignored me before the funeral, travelled together in the second car, so I just took my kids in mine (with SIL and DIL), and did the same in the chapel.
Sod them all, I thought.
I wrote DHs "eulogy" in its entirety...and it was what we wanted. Loving and full of humorous anecdotes.
Lots of music and photos.
I expect it hacked off the SS's family, but it was going to be done the way DH wanted.
They came back afterwards, stayed a while, thanked me for making him happy, and went.
So, I guess that's that - one problem less to deal with.
I was on edge at the "gathering" though - through all this the never ending saga of Miss Dysfunctionality has been thundering on. Long story...🙄
She wasn't invited to the funeral (no chance), but the night before she pulled a knife on my grandson, and ended up in police custody.
I was just dreading the police and social workers rocking up, but they agreed to leave it to this week, and she's on police bail.
So, I'm trying to support DD and GS, they're trying to support me, and on it goes.🙄.
I mean, I could brain her, but it would be nice for this poor child not be be weaponised by Miss D - it's ridiculous. We keep giving her another chance, and then she kicks off again.
Meanwhile, I'm trying to get "myself" back a bit - this defeated persona doesn't really work for me. It's really difficult though.
Thanks to you all for the support xx💐💐