This Christmas has given me a lot of time to think because I've been so unwell AND I've been observing a lot.
My ES is doing drugs and gambling (and posting about it online) No idea about the GC, whether he's still got them or not.
My Mother is being absolutely impossible and using my sibling to try and triangulate. (It's not the first time she's used divide and conquer) I'm so bored of being their scapegoat. Narc & flying monkey shenanigans are so boring.
My self esteem is quite good after a period of healing and I'm seeing that none of it is my fault even though all of the above would love me to think so because none of the above take responsibility for themselves.
I have started to have a dream of leaving the UK for good. I have a place in mind that's warm and is one of the healthiest places to live in Europe due to it's climate. I've started looking at properties and am ready to abandon this place once my lovely youngest son meets the girl of his dreams and doesn't need me anymore.
I thought I just wanted to move house nearby, but I've realised- What am I even doing here? Have you ever thought the same thing and do you have any tips?
Naked pair enjoy meal in non-naturalist pub.