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Estrangement

I miss my babyboy so much.

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jendepressed68 Mon 16-Mar-26 16:21:34

I try really hard to manipulate and gaslight myself into just thinking I don't care but I do. I miss him everyday. This is a burden that I have been carrying for almost ten years now. I come home and sometimes I almost forget how much joy and soul he brought into the little dump I call home. I dont even know where he is today. I have been thinking about hiring a PI and try to contact him once more but I dont have the money for it. I locked away his room and everything but sometimes I relapse and I find myself going in there and just looking around, smelling his clothes, touching his books etc. The room hasn't changed at all, I preserve it. Its basically a museum to my babyboy. I just hope someday he comes back.

Allsorts Thu 19-Mar-26 06:25:37

No one knows the full story or how the son was affected. Maybe in time he can resume contact but he has to want it. Punishing yourself won't help in any way I would not go to a therapist,must rehashing but others do and say it helps them. I think to myself, can I alter the past in any way, have I learnt anything from it, can I put it right, then move forward.

youngMan Thu 19-Mar-26 14:24:24

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youngMan Thu 19-Mar-26 15:14:36

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Smileless2012 Thu 19-Mar-26 15:40:47

You may not feel sympathy is warranted youngMan but thankfully there are some here who do, not for what happened but for the repercussions.

Whether or not you feel sympathy is warranted is no excuse for unnecessary unpleasantness.

youngMan Thu 19-Mar-26 15:45:56

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Smileless2012 Thu 19-Mar-26 16:00:14

Repercussion doesn't mean that something is out of someone's control youngMan. It means the unintended consequences of an event or action, especially an unwelcome one; which is precisely what's happened here.

youngMan Thu 19-Mar-26 16:14:54

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youngMan Thu 19-Mar-26 16:16:17

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Smileless2012 Thu 19-Mar-26 16:18:50

A ridiculous comment youngMan. Raising a child alone which the OP did, takes a great deal of maturity, hard work and self sacrifice.

Smileless2012 Thu 19-Mar-26 16:20:15

Teenagers aren't the only ones who can feel horny youngMan, it isn't only reserved for the young.

youngMan Thu 19-Mar-26 16:30:07

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fancythat Thu 19-Mar-26 16:35:44

Do you believe in forgiveness at all?

youngMan Thu 19-Mar-26 16:48:39

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Smileless2012 Thu 19-Mar-26 16:54:18

And there it is, the real reason for the nature of your posts youngMan; you're estranged from your own mother.

youngMan Thu 19-Mar-26 17:00:38

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Smileless2012 Thu 19-Mar-26 17:04:17

Posts are motivated by many different reasons that's true, and some like yours are motivated by projecting anger and bitterness onto others.

avitorl Thu 19-Mar-26 17:04:59

Someone posting as youngMan seems a bit out of place on a Gransnet Forum

youngMan Thu 19-Mar-26 17:05:35

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fancythat Thu 19-Mar-26 17:09:12

avitorl

Someone posting as youngMan seems a bit out of place on a Gransnet Forum

I dont see why.

Helps for everyone to see lots of perspectives in life.

User138562 Thu 19-Mar-26 17:11:19

Seems a little weird to discount someone's entire point of view because they estranged their parent. Estranged adult children have just as much right to be here and share their opinion. And yes, our experiences have colored our perspective, just as estranged parent's experiences color theirs.

Some here seem rather threatened by that and it makes me wonder what they are denying about themselves. It hard to keep up so much denial and I can understand the urge to control the narrative to protect yourself.

OP did something really messed up. People mess up all the time. Maybe it's time to accept the consequences and move on. Forgiveness is not guaranteed and it's best to remember that BEFORE sleeping with your son's friend.

Allira Thu 19-Mar-26 17:13:23

Smileless2012

And there it is, the real reason for the nature of your posts youngMan; you're estranged from your own mother.

Who may well be the OP.

Smileless2012 Thu 19-Mar-26 17:18:04

I haven't discounted someone's entire point of view because they estranged their parent User, the posts are unnecessarily unpleasant and would be had they come from an EP.

Could be Allira.

Smileless2012 Thu 19-Mar-26 17:26:26

I see they've been deleted.

fancythat Thu 19-Mar-26 17:31:12

But not the OP.

Allira Thu 19-Mar-26 17:32:54

Smileless2012

I see they've been deleted.

I reported one, but see they have all been deleted.
Good. They were toxic.