Black Dog Gang 4

Dear Jaffa, I didn't want to leave your post hanging here without response. I would suggest you have been through a massive shock which has really shaken you badly. Could you talk it through with a professional counsellor?
This is massive, pay attention to your intuition.

Just need somewhere to put my feelings and hear from people not emotionally involved with me. My family do not understand why I am feeling suicidal since being successfully resuscitated last week from an anaphylactic shock. I just wish I had been left to go.
I have had anaphylaxis before, never as severe as this last one and have always been thankful to all the paramedics and hospital staff who have managed to treat me. This time was different. I had gone for 5 years without an allergic reaction. But 15 mins after leaving the restraunt I could feel my throat closing and feeling faint as my blood pressure dropped. My partner pulled the car out of heavy traffic jabbed me twice with adrenaline injector pens and called 999. I don't remember much as went unconscious and stopped breathing. Came round in resus with drugs going through veins and oxygen mask on. I had survived just . Now I am back home crying constantly not wanting to be here.
Do you think this is post traumatic stress or something else ?

Good morning all
May I ask if anyone takes propranolol for anxiety?
I guess some of you have been on this site for a long time and as I am new I would like to know if this site is for UK or does it cover anywhere.
Talk later. Thanks

Flutterbyl thank you .

Yes he was ahead of his time , suppose with the advice to walk
it was ‘me time’ , many of us have a problem with ‘me time’,

I still do the ‘ thought before feeling question ’ when needed,

Claire Weekes did so much for people with anxiety, I still have
her books .

I am so pleased you joined us Flutterbyl, you can unload here ,x

Anniebach that must have been an awful time. With regards to the psychiatrist I think yes he/she was way ahead of their time.
I have a book by Dr Claire Weekes (peace from nervous suffering) she also gives similar advice. Her words of wisdom are wonderful. She advises acceptance to all that you are feeling and thinking as the thoughts are not real. She firmly states the thoughts come before the feelings although does not always feel that way. It’s difficult but I am going to try it along with fresh air and good friends.
Thanks for being here everyone

Hi all x

I like others on GN are struggling with that privacy pop up thingy. Took me 10 clicks to get here, .

That thinking when waking in the night , I am running out of
distraction games , anyone use them ?

What are thoughts on ‘change the thought and you change the
feeling ‘ ?

Would like to share this with you, many years ago, before talking therapy was a treatment and everyone with anxiety were prescribed the dreaded Valium I had to go into what was then called ‘a mental hospital’, following the death of my husband, anxiety, grief, eating disorder. The head psychiatrist
was so ahead of the time. I wasn’t given medication but he told
me to eat as much as possible, take walks in the fields, cry when I felt near to tears, with two little girls grieving I held back my tears. Of the anxiety he said ‘ask yourself what was your thought before your stomach started churning.

Sorry for long post but wanted to share that advice.

Thanks folks.

Flutter, I recognise that feeling, not doing anything useful, not motivated enough, fed up of not achieving even though I know its my own fault. No answers, sorry.

Flutterbyl I have took fluoxetine for about 10 year, and never really been my self in al them years, had my few good time, and lots of down times. Just recently I have started taking CBD oil I have slowly come off my antidepressant and I feel good for the first time in a good few years.. But PLEASE PLEASE do think about what you are doing, it was my choice to do this and I am not advising or recommending anyone does the same.. just want to say it’s working for me at the moment, I don’t know if this will last I just pray it does.. you must get you GP advice before doing anything with your medication..

Aww Flutterbyl always hear to help if we can. There is nothing wrong with a cry does us good sometimes.. we do all need something to occupy our minds but it’s easier said than done when you are down. Do you read? I find it helps when I don’t feel like doing anything else..
hope everyone’s getting though the day ok..
Nonnie I will pray for you as I do for all on this thread stay strong.

In my thoughts Nonnie x

Hi my new friends. Needing bit of helping hand this afternoon. Feeling bit tearful and churning tum. Not sure why or is it me having too much time not doing anything as weather is awful. Thanks

nonnie much love xxx my daughter sees one of these drs in oxford xx

flutter firstly it is OK to feel like that. Sorry if I am stating the obvious but I know the obvious sometimes escapes me until someone points it out. I am thinking of that 3 am thinking about the 35 things which you need to think about but when you write them down they turn out to be only 3. Please write things down in two lists, good and bad then decide which you can do something about and which you can't and act approriately. Gosh that was so easy to say but I know I'm not good at it. I am expert at listing positives but my brain recognises them and I still feel rubbish.

joce that is so lovely to hear. Please stay on this thread and give us all your encouragement.

have seen my GP and seem to have reached a stalemate. Deep down I feel my problem is physical so have asked to see an Endocrinologist (won't bother you all with the reasons why).

I am about to do a very difficult task which I have been putting off, it is going to be very emotional but I have steeled myself to finally do it. Please, if you pray, pray for me today. Thanks.

Be kind to yourselves

hello flutterby1 welcome to you. I,m not about much right now but this is a great place to be if you need a friendly ear or some sense xxx

Joyce thank you for your caring comment. May I ask you how you managed to feel better. Thanks again to everyone who has posted a reply i’m very touched.

Nice to see you back with us Nonnie, Think you really need to see your GP please don’t keep struggling on your own God bless you.

Aww flutter no there is nothing wrong with wanting time for yourself, we all need me time now and again. You have as much me time as you need.

Annie I cannot believe how much better I am, and how bad I was a few weeks ago, I just hope and pray it lasts for me.. I have not felt like this in few year. Not saying it will last but for now I am in a good place.
I pray for all our friends in the black dog gang, hope you all get some peace of mind if only for a short time would be a blessing. Sending hugs to all..

Few tears today and busy mind. Have been trying to distract my negative thinking. It’s not easy. I am having few family problems and when I think I am getting to grips with things I begin getting anxious. Now these things may only be little concerns but that can be enough for me to get upset. Would just like some time with only having to deal with me or is that wrong. Thanks for being there friends.

Thanks annie

Hi all x

I am having problems posting, have that privacy problem some other posters are having, takes about 10 taps on iPad
to get to one thread .

flutterby you can feel comfortable here, we all understand because we like you have anxiety and depression x

nanny you still haven’t seen you GP ? I understand you are
grieving for your cat but I am concerned there are other things troubling you, perhaps counselling?

Joce when I recall how low you were and how you struggled, I have much admiration for you , x

nonnie I have been concerned but know it is a very difficult time for you, you have my love and understanding x

We will get through this cruel illness my dear friends, and we
.know we all understand and care.

I give us all a ? today x

Hello all

Not been up to coming on for a few weeks so completely out of touch with you all. Will try to get back on track.

hello all. Things here are stable. thats a good word. I have realised that i have become bitter and standoffish since someone took my babycakes. I dont care about much, i feel everyone is picking at me but when i bite back I am the one in the wrong. My bungalow is getting me down. so many minor problems that hubby just cant sort. might have to suck it up and get a builder in. all things that can be sorted but they seem so huge. love to all and i hope you are all ok. annie how is your knee? xx

I am so touched with receiving replies from caring, thoughtful, understanding people.
Just not had a good day and feeling low but it helps to know there are friends out there who understand.
I will post again tomorrow. Thank you

Evening Annie hope you are well.

Hi flutterbyl welcome sorry you are feeling low I suffer with heath anxiety.. like Annie says it does take a while to come back down after so long.. hope it soon passes for you. There is always some one to talk to on hear we will listen..

Night all sleep ? Well

Hello flutterby. Welcome. Yes I know all about the knot in the stomach. I think annie gives good advice. I have times of the day when I feel better than others. Mornings when I wake up are not good as the panic sets in straight away. At night I am just tired so usually sleep.
Night night all. Hope you all sleep well x