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OH now on end-of-life care.

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Luckygirl Fri 24-Jan-20 17:10:07

OH in nursing hone with end-stage PD, and he has been in terrible mental stress with paranoia on top of his total physical helplessness. He shot a temperature yesterday and clearly has some sort of infection - probably chest. I opted for him not to go to hospital, as I know this is what he wants. They are trying (and failing) to get oral antibiotics down, and have scratched all meds non-essential for his comfort . We just want him to go in peace now. But he is intermittently awake and in distress that he cannot articulate. They have all the necessary drugs for palliative care.

I am torn between wanting to keep him and wanting him to just go now so his distress is over. It is a torment

Vicbar Sun 02-Feb-20 21:24:09

Luckygirl, you dont know me, imam only here because Imlost my mam recently.
I just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you. No one has, or will ever, experience what you are going through, because everyones pain is unique.

Just know that thise who 'know' you here are thinking of you, and those, like me, who dont rrally know you, still care deeply for how you feel.

Be kind to yourself, take care x

Vicbar Sun 02-Feb-20 21:25:19

I am so sorry for my typos. I have fat fingers and am very small of brain.

Witzend Sun 02-Feb-20 21:36:08

I’ve only just seen this thread. Luckygirl, what a dreadful time for both of you, but I’m glad his suffering is finally over. I do hope you will find some peace and rest now, amidst all the inevitable emptiness and awful sadness now that he’s gone. xx

GrannyGravy13 Sun 02-Feb-20 21:47:23

luckygirl howl away, it’s one of the bodies “healing mechanisms”.
I still howl for my parents when I am in the shower, I talk to them also when I shower.

Your dear husband is at peace, you and your girl’s are devastated and have many stages to go through.

Send virtual hugs flowers

Urmstongran Sun 02-Feb-20 22:31:54

I would like to add my sincere condolences to you Luckygirl and to your girls. May you draw strength from one another in your grief.
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NanaandGrampy Sun 02-Feb-20 22:37:09

Deepest sympathies at this sad time Luckygirl . My thoughts are with you and your family x

Laurely Sun 02-Feb-20 23:07:56

Luckygirl
It won't console you now, but GNetters are full of admiration for the way you have looked after and fought for the needs of your OH. You no longer need to do that - and this may make you feel useless. It is time for you to consider yourself. Sleep when you need to, cry when you need to, and be glad that your witty, erudite, musical man is beyond pain and fear. Rest and recover. I and many others are thinking of you of hoping that - if we need to be - we can be as kind, caring and determined as you have been.thanks

Feelingmyage55 Sun 02-Feb-20 23:24:22

My sincere condolences. Take all the help and support you are offered. You deserve it having been such a loving support to your DH. ?

callgirl1 Mon 03-Feb-20 00:43:56

My sincere condolences Luckygirl, but your man is at peace now, and pain free. xx

Love and hugs also to Scribbles xx

sukie Mon 03-Feb-20 02:08:55

Sending my deepest condolences to you Luckygirl and your family on the loss of your dear husband and father. You all will be in my thoughts and prayers.

sodapop Mon 03-Feb-20 08:51:37

I can't add anything to Laurely's post, you did the very best anyone could do for your husband Luckygirl I hope you and your family find peace and comfort in the time to come. thanks

Lona Mon 03-Feb-20 08:57:04

Lucky my deepest sympathy flowers
May your beloved husband rest in peace now.

Shandy57 Mon 03-Feb-20 09:24:37

Dear Luckygirl, I am so sorry to read your news, my deepest sympathies to you and your family. Remember to be kind to yourself xx

Nortsat46 Mon 03-Feb-20 10:06:22

Dear Luckygirl,
Let me add my sincere condolences on the loss of your beloved man.
He is at peace now.
I hope you and your girls are able to find some peace too, to sustain you through the next stages of your journey.

Your friends in the GN army are holding you and your lovely man in our thoughts. ?

jura2 Mon 03-Feb-20 10:12:03

The next few days will be so hard Lucky- but then Spring will be upon us and you will slowly, but surely, regain strength and courage- and when are are ready ... I'd love you to come back to Switzerland and stay for a while- so I can show you my part of the world. When you are ready - you have my e-mail address and tel number.

Much love and hugs

Squiffy Mon 03-Feb-20 11:23:31

I'm so sorry Lucky. Your DH was blessed to have such a caring and devoted family. flowers

Curlywhirly Mon 03-Feb-20 11:29:00

Jura2, how lovely your offer to Lucky is, hope she takes you up on it.

BBbevan Mon 03-Feb-20 13:24:48

There are some very generous ,empathetic people on GN. You, Jura are one. What a lovely, lovely offer to * Luckygirl*

Dawn22 Mon 03-Feb-20 15:50:43

Dear Lucky girl. Thinking of you and sending you flowersflowers.
Take care now as best you can.
Dawn xx

Allegretto Mon 03-Feb-20 16:23:50

I’m sending you my deepest condolences, Luckygirl. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

lemongrove Mon 03-Feb-20 17:01:24

So sorry Luckygirl but the right outcome for all of you, including your DH.?

vintage1950 Mon 03-Feb-20 17:05:35

I am so sorry. What a dreadful ordeal for you both. He had your love and support to the end. All best wishes.
flowers flowers

harrigran Mon 03-Feb-20 17:29:48

Sending my sincere condolences Luckygirl, it has been a long and hard road. Be kind to yourself flowers

annep1 Mon 03-Feb-20 21:04:29

I am so so sorry Luckygirl.
My thoughts are with you all. flowers

Nandalot Mon 03-Feb-20 22:13:07

So sorry, Luckygirl. Thinking of you at this very sad time.