Black Dog Gang 7

Crissy I have read your post. I totally understand, I am exactly the same.. I am not very good at expressing myself I could have wrote your post, yes it may seem silly to some but in our heads it’s not, no body feels worse and more ashamed than me when it’s not what I thought it was that was wrong with me. Our heads don’t work the same as others. I have had cancer, I dealt with it I thought very good. But that is still my constant fear.. I would still say to you go and see your GP..
Annie is right and we know that she is but, it’s that but...
some people with HA go to the GP for every thing and some do what we do. I know I wish I could go to the GP easy, I can’t.
It certainly would stop a lot of my stress if I could.. I have just started having counselling I am hoping and praying that it helps me, I will try anything..
Stay strong it’s hard but we have to try

Thank you so much for your kind words. Yes, I agree I do need to talk to my GP. I'm drowning as there are too many problems for me to handle on my own without the depression.

Scaredycat it sounds as though you had a nice lunch with your DD. The more you do things like that, the easier it will become.
Joce I hope the counselling helps you. Is it one to one or group?
Purplepixie please try and get an appointment soon. That drowning feeling is not nice. Hope you get some treatment that helps.
Annie how have you been today?
I’ve been for a long walk. Bit wobbly.
Hope everyone has a good night. x

Anniebach Thank you for your kind words. Believe me I’ve tried everything. I have had several lots of counselling, I’ve done group and individual CBT, I’ve seen a spiritual healer and a hypnotherapist. I’m now about to try acupuncture.

Doodle I know you weren’t talking about lack of knowledge in a bad way. For some reason I’m always imagining the worst case scenario and I think that’s because I think that, by imagining the worse case scenario, whatever happens can’t be any worse than that.

Joce345 I’m so sorry. There I am rambling on about cancer and you have actually had to deal with that. I really hope that the counselling helps you.

Hello everyone
How are you Annie xx
Hope your counselling helps Joyce and you start to feel better in yourself. Anxiety is horrible, particularly about your health.
Scardeycat glad you had a nice lunch with your daughter. Small steps, that is the way to go.
Purplepixie hope you manage to see the doctor, keep trying if you can't get through, don't give up.
Doodle read your post earlier about your hubby, that is very hard xx My daughter and I speak quite often and if she is well not as much, it is when things are deteriorating with her MH that it all gets out of control, ringing at all times of the day and night. However, at the moment she is doing well and is safe, that is the main thing.
Hope everyone has a peaceful evening and a good night's sleep, love to all (sorry to miss some people out). Take care, stay safe xx

Good night all x

ScaredyCat you are moving forward, I know how difficult that can be, so tempting to ‘stay in our safe place’ which is in a
way our prison x

lavender I so understand, hugs x

Joyce no I wasn’t right, there is no right or wrong x g

Doodle it’s good you went for a long walk, ?

I found out today the physiotherapist I saw all last year, the one who wanted me to open the window when she called because the room was too hot for her ! Isn’t a physiotherapist,
I just can’t believe it , she is the same person who said if I fell
on my front path someone would look out of a window and come to help me. I am not feeling kindly towards her.

Evening all Doodle yes it one on one.. see how it goes I am hopeful..

Annie I do think you are right we do need to see the GP if there’s a problem.
It is the fear of them saying something you don’t want to hear..

Chrissy please don’t apologise, we fear Cancer but it’s not always the worst case, I beat it. I never thought I would cope if someone told me I had cancer, just shows we can and do. Thankfully I’m fine, I’m 15 year on. But still fear it, if I’m honest I fear any illness..

Annie who was she? x

Hi all x

How is everyone ?

Annie who on earth was that woman who came to see you. That is so bad. You need proper help and assessment. I hope you manage to get a proper physio appointment sorted soon.
Lavender glad your DD is ok at the moment. Hope it lasts.
Joce hope the counselling helps. One on one should be centred on you. Group counselling can be of benefit too.
Chrissy hope the acupuncture helps. Have you thought of yoga too. Not done it myself but it is supposed to help you relax.
Lucyanne hope you are ok. Have you been gardening again?
Bluesky, Purplepixie hope you are coping. Take care all.

Anyone else having IT issues today? This is all I can find for BDG why? Someone please PM me if I am doing something wrong.

Doodle I have now checked on that woman , she is part of a
‘Replaced Team’, she was not from Physiotherapy, I asked who
arranged for her to see me, physio didn’t know !

Seems her job is to visit me to see if I am coping and not to give me advice on managing the arthritis, I am still so cross.

Have now spoken to a physiotherapist from physio dept,

Annie understandably you are cross, what on earth was she doing...
hope you are ok today Annie..x

Hi everybody Phew it’s close today but not really sunny - hope your day is ok . This morning I woke up very early and after a while went into AFib for the 4 th time in a week. This hasn,t happened before so I spoke to the Doc who said all was ok and was typical of the condition as time goes on . He said recent blood tests were all fine and I can continue doing everything I do now. After talking to him it stopped within half an hour!!!! So I went off to visit my teacher Grandaughter for an hour while DH hung out the washing? Was nervous as she is back to work but we sat outside and chatted- love her.
Annie you are so right that our “safe place” can become a prison . What a terrible person the non physiotherapist was and there is no excuse how she spoke to you whatever her position was. I hope you get some proper help now from caring people.
Do you walk a lot Doodle - it does help to clear your head doesn,t it. As Dr Claire Weekes says “ jelly legs will still get you there”
Joce hope the counselling goes well and your counsellor is kind.
Chrissy too hope the acupuncture does you good - it is worth trying everything. Reflexology is very good and relaxing.
Love to everyone and take care

Annie it’s slightly worrying that a person can get into your home under the guise of being a physio and no one knows who sent her. I am not surprised you’re angry. I’m glad you have at last got through to the physio. I hope they sort out a proper visit for you.
Nonnie sorry you’re having IT problems. Mine seems ok (which is not of great comfort to you) . Try contacting GNHQ if you still are having problems.
Scaredycat I hope that now you’ve had a chance to talk to the GP you can relax a bit with your AF now. I know it is an unpleasant sensation but hopefully you can cope with it better now.
How nice to have a chat with your DGD. Out in the sunshine will do you good.
Yes I do walk every day. DH has claudication in his legs and he needs to walk to keep the blood vessels pumping.
Hope everyone is ok, thinking of you all x

Joce345 I suppose we do cope if we have to but I have convinced myself that I couldn’t even if others can. Somehow I need to change my way of thinking but I’ve tried everything I can think of and so far nothing’s changed. However I’m about to try acupuncture, my first appointment isn’t until 22 October so still a bit of waiting to do.

Anniebach That’s disgraceful that the woman wasn’t a physiotherapist as you thought. I don’t blame you for being angry.

Doodle I’ve tried yoga and Pilates but they didn’t help. I spoke to the acupuncturist on the phone today. She quite rightly isn’t promising a cure for my health anxiety, nothing can do that. She said that I’ve had it so long that it’s deeply entrenched in me. She does think she can at least help to lessen my anxiety and make it easier for me to cope with. I would be happy with that.

Scaredycat Yes I’m also looking into Reflexology. I’m trying to throw everything at my anxiety in the hope that something will work. I’m sorry that you’re dealing with AFib, both my parents had it. I’m glad that you got the chance to visit your Granddaughter.

Good night and God bless everyone. Have a peaceful evening and a good night's sleep. Take care, stay safe, love to all xx

Chrissy sorry I can’t recall, have you had counselling ? And with respect you seem sure the acupuncture isn’t going to cure
you, I have spoken often of ‘hope’, I think it’s important, I have
had an eating disorder but beat it, a great fear of snow for 50
years, l recently had EMDR therapy, I still don’t like snow but I
now know why I feared it so much.

Without hope what is there ?

Chrissy our minds think the same, belief me I’m so scared 24/7 ... we can and do cope. We really do have to try and think positive it’s so hard. I hope acupuncture works for you.
I have had it for other things and it has always worked for me, I have never thought of trying it for HA, I will look into it..
I am going to keep up with my councillor fingers crossed he will be able to help me ..it is changing the way we thinking.

Hope every one has a peaceful night.. ?

Good night all x

Hope is all we have. Annie so true.
Sleep well all. God bless x

Hi all x

Love this poem . Emily Dickinson.

Hope” is the thing with feathers -
That perches in the soul -
And sings the tune without the words -
And never stops - at all -

And sweetest - in the Gale - is heard -
And sore must be the storm -
That could abash the little Bird
That kept so many warm -

I’ve heard it in the chillest land -
And on the strangest Sea -
Yet - never - in Extremity,
It asked a crumb - of me.

Morning Annie . That’s lovely. We all need hope.
How are you today?

Morning Doodle I am ok thanks, have calmed down after that physiotherapist stuff.

Glad you liked the poem, I haven’t posted one for a while,
thinking about hope last night I remembered that poem x

I also like this quote ‘fall seven times and stand up eight’

Message to all from nonnie, she is having problems getting on this thread, she will be back with us as soon as the problem
is solved