I have never been ashamed nor have I hid vecause I have Mental Health illness not mental health problem because I don`t have a problem with it It`s you who has the problem I take pils for mine whats your exuse?
Stigma around mental health is still as bad today as it always has, I think the main reason for this is not ignorance or the lack of knowledg Its more of the understanding and to be able to realy unserstand a person who suffers you also have to have the illnes yourself. When the mental AWEARNESS began I can remember thinking great I did just fine going about my buisnes without been noticed but by educating people telling them what to look for so we are no longer invissable but more highlighted with a flashing head post saying OVER HERE LOOK IM MAD has made it more difficult for me to go out in crowded public places. The silly thing is when randomly my brain decides to have a dicky fit Its me that brings atension to my some what bizar behaviour, I can be going about my buisness as you do then some one will grab my attention so I look and if that person just happent to look back in my direction It is like WHAM full on Anxziety I have to leave what i am doing and get home, Its a feeling of despare panic like your life depends on It, I begen to sweat fron all corners of my body as it runs down my face back and legs I know when Its coming but I have no controll over It. I decided to stop fighting It & instead just go with the flow If I look totaly mad because im talking to the vegitable section asking it a question yes somebody is watching me who cares I take medication for my problem, whats there exuse for been so dam rude & dissrespectfull. I deal with this by taking the object walking up to them I smile then say anyone would think your wating for the carrot to answer me back even though thats just mad. I gained controll over my menal health when I excepted It and decided I no longer had a problem with It after all it defies me because it is part of who I am today, without it I would not be me. So thank you to my MENTAL HEALTH for making me mad and some times a little or maybe alot mental.
Good Morning Good Friday 29th March 2024