Black Dog 19

That's it! No more Baking.
After turning a blind eye to tight jeans and a tyre wrapped round hips I took the plunge and hauled myself onto scales. I told myself, at worst, I'd put on a stone.
Nope.
A stone and a half!
I feel terrible. My own fault. Too much wine and comfort eating (or punishing myself) .Along with no motivation to do anything.
Note to self. Don't listen to DH when he says 'I've seen more fat on a chip' when I've asked him. 😔

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HVDY I thought you probably knew how to do photos, it was just in case. But of course I remember now you've posted photos before 🙄.
Doodle I did feel I'd achieved something, ridiculous I know.
You are most certainly sure to be run down after all you've been through recently. . You need to give yourself time to regain strength, maybe not worry too much about Christmas at the minute.
Sweetpeasue it's OK to ask if you've forgotten something rather than all that scrolling. I hurt my head a year ago and had MRI scan done, just need results explained more. Wasn't getting anywhere so got my MP to contact the department.
I'm so sorry for what you are going through. And I don't understand the lack of care. I hope you get to speak to someone tomorrow, perhaps complain loudly. Giving you a big hug. x

Sweetpeasue Its hard to lose weight when you're not very active and lack of sleep is bad too for weight. Maybe try just eating very little carbs and it's bound to help. That way you can still have a treat. Don't worry too much about it or you'll eat more!

Scaredycat I didn't see your post until after I'd written mine. I'm sorry about all the awful news in your family. Certainly puts my weight gain into perspective.
You are so right about appreciating our loved ones. Such sadness. I sometimes think the price of loving is so high and life so v hard.
I hope your nice will be OK and feel better after her procedure tomorrow.
You are so good at pushing yourself to walk, you don't need to beat yourself up about not walking today.
Yes the call the other day about broadband was v much like you said. You feel awful having to ask them to repeat themselves all the time. My family pet name is a bit silly really but personal to me --moreso after parents have gone. Don't think these companies have any right to ask.
Have a peaceful night and thankyou for your kind words.

Thanks Nadateturbe I really needed that hug. The caring has actually brought tears . Just feeling a bit raw.
I should have known about your head, can't think how I've missed it. I hope the results aren't too worrying but much better for you to get a clearer understanding of things.I would certainly want that. I'm glad you got things moving through contacting your MP .
As for the weight-its amazing how we fool ourselves. I used to think by putting more blueberries in it was so much less cake in the muffin.And blueberries are good-right? X

And blueberries are good-right?
😁
Just noticed your post Scaredycat. Back later.

I’ve not had a great day.
We went to a nearby garden centre for lunch and a look around.
My meal was too much but I tried to eat as much as possible because she had paid and it was very good.
Started to feel sick and clammy but didn’t say anything. But she realised I wasn’t good. I said I needed to get out side . Next thing I knew I had two garden centre staff and a lady from the next table beside me and dd was phoning an ambulance.
Anyway after a while I felt better and the ambulance folk were going to phone her back. But I got very stressed waiting about so in the end she took me back and phoned and told them I would see gp. Apparently I was unresponsive and very pale. Now she’s annoyed with me because I m not taking it seriously. I told her it’s happened before without the passing out.
Anyway she s taking me to the station tomorrow. I usually get a bus.
And she won’t let me have my wine tonight. She got quite cross!
Sorry this post is all about me but I am reading others and thinking about you all.

Ellie Anne despite what you may think, your DD cares about you and is worried. You may have had a turn like this before but she is anxious about you and would any of us be if we’d had such a turn.
Probably a lot to do with eating too much when you didn’t really want to. That can make you feel ill.
She’s probably right about the wine tonight, making sure you’re feeling better. And driving you to the station. All sounds caring to me. Of course she wants you to take it seriously she’s worried, I’ve had similar reactions for our sons about me and their dad. They don’t want us to brush things off.
Hope you have a straightforward journey home but get checked out by GP.
Sweetpeasue sorry you had such a bad night. Hope you can call tomorrow and get something sorted out.
You and me both about weight gain. Mine is awful. I’m huge.
HVDY much the same thanks. Hope you’ve had a good weekend.
Scaredycat glad you got a long chat in with your sister. Sorry you’ve had such awful news to deal with. Such sadness. Do hope your niece is ok and the procedure goes well.
nadateturbe certainly was an achievement 😊
Wyllow sending hugs.
Sorry really short posts but I’m not feeling great and can’t really concentrate. Take care all x

EllieAnne What a frightening thing to happen to you. A shame you felt you had to finish your meal because your DD paid.Im sure she wouldn't have minded one bit. She must have felt so worried about you to have called the ambulance and not taking any chances is a good thing at times. It sounds as if you don't want to be too concerned about it so as not to worry her , so your DD in turn, is feeling worried that you don't appear to be worried(if that makes sense. Its caring of her to take you to the station tomorrow. Just let her help and I'm sure she'll feel better that you've accepted that help. I do hope you manage your journey back more smoothly. Take care of yourself.
Doodle You need to take care of yourself too and take it easy. You might have caught a virus or something but hope you get a good night's rest . So much stress for you in a short period and your body wants some relief from it I'd have thought.Sending you a hug.x
Wyllow Hope you are getting MH help and have family looking out for you. We all care. Wishing you a peaceful night.x

Scaredycat what an upsetting day, nothing but bad news, and so very sad for all those families. Yes, we have to let our children know how much we love them.
It's very cold now. I wrap a scarf round my face when I'm out walking. Your husband is lucky not feeling the cold!
I'm not on blood thinners, thankfully, please take care, it's so easy to forget!
You had a lovely long chat with your sister. Facetime is good. I'm sure she was glad of being able to talk to you about your niece's implant. I hope it goes well. We worry about our children so much.
Yes, we do seem to lose confidence as we get older. Perhaps we should challenge ourselves more, even a little.
Belfast had changed so much, I barely recognised some areas. And so many people wrapped in sleeping bags begging.
EllieAnne your daughter obviously cares and is concerned about you. I think you should see your GP too. I wonder did you have a reaction to something you ate. And I think no alcohol was a good idea.
Safe home tomorrow. x

Doodle hope you are taking it easy and you are both OK.
Short post is fine. xx

ScaredyCat I hope your niece's operation goes well tomorrow. I believe the implant gives a shock to the heart if it's not beating properly. All that sad news - things like that make me realise how very lucky I am. We never know what's in store, do we?

nadateturbe8 Sorry if I've not noticed, but what *were the results of the MRI?

SweetpeaSue I've put on far too much weight but every time I start cutting down on what I eat, DH buys chocolate or cake and then I must eat it. It would be better if it wasn't in the house at all. Blueberries are good for you . I hope you manage to get to speak to someone tomorrow, the lack of care is so bad.

EllieAnne That must have been a fright for you. Did you have pain with your funny turn? Your daughter was obviously worried about you and was probably right about the wine. Perhaps you should get yourself checked at the doctor's. Hope your journey back goes a lot better than your journey there.

My brother is very worried about his son (who is 54), he felt unwell for a few days and then was slurring his words, so he went to the GP yesterday, who sent him to hospital for an MRI, thinking it was a TIA. It turns out it's a brain tumour and they've kept him in for further tests and another MRI, but there's no qualified person to read the results. There's always something in life, eh?

I've done all the Christmas present shopping, wrapped everything, written all the cards. I must be mad to do it all a month early. Hope ALL BDers have a restful night x

Oh HVDY that's awful about your nephew. What a terrible shock for him, and the family. Praying that he will be OK.
My MRI showed nothing terrible from the head injury which was great, but the neurologist gave me a printout of the results, full A4 sheet which might as well have been in a foreign language. I googled a couple of terms used (microangiopathic change, and myelopathy??)and thought I need this explained. I think we get fobbed off a lot, and I like to understand things.
Thankfully my MRI was good though. Not like your dear nephew.
I can't believe you've all your Christmas presents not only bought but wrapped. And cards written. Gosh!! You are so organised.

Thinking of all on BD and remembering you all in my prayers. Hope your night is peaceful. xx

A lot of troubles to bear for many BD's. Thank you for concerns. Love to you all BD's. Just cant share atm xx

nadateturbe Are you Diabetic? I do wish doctors/Consultants would speak in a language that we non-medical people could understand. I do the same as you, Google everything. I'm very organised this year, but the trouble is that once I start buying things, I find it so hard to stop. DH takes no notice, and he never knows what I've bought for anyone (I tell him but he's not at all interested). He never has to choose, buy, or wrap a thing (we don't buy for each other) and only ever has 1 card to write (mine).

It's a dark, wet morning. Eldest GD has already messaged me a couple of times . Hope everyone's day gets a bit brighter today x

HVDY high blood sugar (probably predi really).
I'm very careful with carbs and a bit careful with sugar. It's working so far (touch wood). Such a nuisance to have to watch cholesterol as well. But could have real problems!
I Google but sensibly. Its very useful isn't it?
You're very organised, and I think you do so well with everything.
I'm off to hairdressers and then husband is helping me shop. 😁🙄. Hairdressers is close to shopping centre.
It's sunny here. . Hope you get some help Sweetpeasue.
How are you Doodle?.

Hope everyone had a good night. And has a more pleasant day.xx

nadateturbe My last blood test showed I was pre-diabetic (never happened before), but the steroids I was on for 13 weeks often cause that. I need to lose weight, though. My cholesterol is fine (I keep telling them I don't intend to take statins either)
What did you have done at the hairdresser's? I love having my hair washed there. (I wash it every other day myself).

SweetpeaSue Hope you managed to get through to someone.
Doodle How are you both today?

SIL is moving into permanent care on Wednesday, so that will be more settling for her.

It's still raining here . Hope everyone's getting on ok. I'm just listening to heavy metal on my headphones . x

HVDY your sugar level may well go down if steroids caused it. I changed my diet to lower my blood sugar, did a 20 min walk as many days as possible, and was very surprised to find I was losing weight. I lost over a stone in a year. I take statins, family heart history is very bad. Helps a bit.
Trim and blow dry. Arthritis in neck, so wash it at home. Most people though love the head massage.
I thought your SiL was in a permanent place already. Fingers crossed she is happy and this is the last move. Is it close for visiting?

Heavy metal music. Omg. 🙉

nadateturbe I wish I could blow-dry it like the hairdressers do. It always feels good to have a trim, doesn't it? SIL had been in hospital for 3 or 4 weeks now, with an infection in her legs and a suspected DVT. (She's been bed-blocking for about 2 of those weeks) Yje home she's going to go to seems very good (I looked the website and CQC but my brother visited and looked around the place) and will be near to him (about 8 miles from me).

Hope all BDers have been ok today. Just going to do the dinner - chicken roast dinner. x

Not much I can do. My hairs very short, bit like Judi Dench. She asked me what I would like today. I said shoulder length and curly please.
Sweetpeasue how are you? x

nadateturbe Shoulder-length and curly . Mine's a couple of inches past my collar, layered and naturally curly/wavy.

Had brother on the 'phone - his son (54) has been told today that he's got lung cancer and that it's also in his kidneys and brain (sad). They've discharged him from hospital and he'll see an Oncologist as an out-patient. Things are bleak. I'll visit my brother tomorrow but I've no idea what I can say.

I'm so so sorry HVDY. Heartbreaking. My sister was diagnosed just before Christmas too. I can't remember what I said. I think she took the lead. But he'll be glad to see you.

You've got the hair I want, but it seems so unimportant...