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Wyllow I'm so sorry to hear things aren't any better. I hope you're getting the help you need. MH services are struggling terribly in our area. Please keep calling MH service for help and don't stop. You will need to keep on making yourself heard when you're struggling. We are all willing and praying you back to good health. You have what can be a good and worthwhile life left even if you can't see it or believe it right now. You are fragile, be kind to yourself and know you are cared about by us here but more importantly to your family who love you. Wish I had some magic words. I think we all miss your wise and perceptive words to everyone. Lots of love x 🙏

My DGD is 14 and has just been put on medication for depression. Is this usual. Might she get better or will this be a life long thing.

Scaredycat socialising, chatting is, I find, the most tiring thing. It takes a lot of pacing to keep in contact with folk. I hope you're feeling rested. Glad your GD is recovering.
HVDY thanks for empathising. Nice to know I'm not alone. Look after yourself, I hope you're OK for tomorrow.
It's good and reassuring for Scaredycat to hear about a positive ablation op.

I've had a lovely afternoon. I am 5 mins from the seafront. Walked along the beach and then watched the sailing boats from the pier, and chatted to some folk with dogs, which they had got from animal rescue. Husband is at cinema with his son.
Wyllow3 thinking of you. Sending love.x

Hi all.
HVDY- Glad your Sons move went off without a hitch- it’s so nice how well all your menfolk get on. You must be tired after another disturbed night - hope you feel better tomorrow for your GD day.
I,m glad your SiLs Sister had a successful ablation and is enjoying her life. I didn’t chose not to have one - I was told by a private consultant I saw that I am too old and my body weight is too low. I don’t want one anyway for the same reasons they gave Whiffs brother.I am much older than your friend.
Hope you have a cooler night tonight.
Nadateturbe- your new Art project sounds interesting- water isn’t easy is it. I would love to see it when it’s finished.
I do agree that sometimes socialising and chatting can wear you out. I spoke to my Sister for an hour this morning then had a walk and coffee with DD. Love them both so much but I,m very tired now. I didn’t know you too live near the sea- so glad you were up to walking on the beach - sounds wonderful.
SweetPeaSue- what a nice post to Wyllow. I echo everything you said - she has become very important to us all. Hope you are having a good day and that the sun is shining as it is here.
MrsKen33- I,m sorry to hear that your DGD is suffering from depression. 14 is a difficult age isn’t it you are neither an adult or a child and so much is going on for young people these days. I have no knowledge of somebody of that age taking ADs but hopefully she will be monitored very carefully. Somebody here may be more knowledgeable and we are here for you .
Wyllow - sending loving thoughts.
Doodle,Candy,EllieAnne , Hymnbook,Fishwife,Allsorts Nanny thinking of you all

Thank you.

MrsKen33 I'm sorry your DGD has depression. I believe its not unusual these days for some children to be treated for depression with ADs and I see no reason why they can't help younger people as they can adults. I have no experience of anyone I know but I hope someone else here might have some reassuring words. As Scaredycat mentions it is a difficult age and I hope the ADs will help her to feel better and cope with any problems she might have.
*Scaredycat I'm glad you had a nice walk with your daughter and also spoke to your sister. I hope she is continuing to have better health. The sun has been shining here today and DH and myself went out for a coffee though really should have had a walk. I have been feeling low but think I need my AD dose looking at which had been postponed as Psychiatrist appt was cancelled a couple of weeks ago due to strikes. See her end of next week. Hope you have a good rest and thinking about you tomorrow.
Nadateturbe Thank you for your encouragement about craft workshop. It's not an ongoing weekly thing but some hrs in a day that is paid for. There is another weekly 2hr one but I think I need to be in a different frame of mind at the moment. It must have been incredibly scary to make a life after your 1st marriage and, as you say, having to make all decisions alone for the first time. Your posts are always so caring so please rest easy and never feel you have to do anything else. I understand as I often feel the same. x
HVDY Thankyou. I always think of you as an outgoing and easy friendly person. I had to smile at your excuse to escape at the job interview yrs ago. What a brilliant plan. ☺️. Hope you're feeling a lot better than you were and your legs are not too bad.
Doodle Hope you've not been too bad today. Thinking of you tomorrow - good luck with appt.

Washing all done and dried today. I mentioned earlier about AD dosage was due to rise ages ago (6wks ago Psychiatrist suggested it but a side effect was troublesome so put on hold till next appt - which was cancelled). Good day painwise, just not feeling any urge to get out of bed or face the day. Sorry for my moan.

Hope all BDs managing to have a decent day. Love to all not personally mentioned. X

Ellie Anne I like your adopted name too. Nice you met up with a friend. Did you walk on the beach this afternoon?
How’s the weather where you are.? Despite the storms it’s been quite mild here.
Sweetpeasue pleased you had a better day pain wise.
Thanks for the tip about anaemia. I looked into that and you’re right it could be. It’s been difficult this weekend so hard to put one foot in front of the other.
I can understand you not wanting to join groups on your own but sometimes it works out ok. I’ve done a few and after the initial couple of weeks you get to know people.
What colour is the jumper you’re knitting?
nadateturbe you are right. Most people want to be friendly but it takes more than one or two weeks to settle in especially if everyone else has been going a while. I’ve become friendly with a woman from church who I’ve known for a while but only started talking to recently. Your painting sounds just like the sort of thing I’d like to paint. I’d love to do little river scenes or landscapes. Would never be able to do a portrait as I’d get the eyes all wrong.
What a lovely afternoon you had. I love watching boats.
Scaredycat nice to live so close to your GD that you can have chance meet-ups. Good to have a coffee and chat. Pleased to hear your GD with the Covid is feeling better. Hopefully the inhaler will help. I use mine every day.
I find it difficult to chat too much in one day. I used to manage it while I was at work but now I’m older I don’t have the memory to know what I’ve asked before or the energy to keep chatting.
HVDY I would never imagine you had social anxiety. I always think of you as a positive and very friendly sort of person. You’ve done well to get yourself involved with things.
That’s kind of you to say I find the right words but I think the truth is we all do. We can find the words because we care. Might not always understand where the other person is coming from but we can tell when someone is struggling and hold out a hand.
Glad you’re feeling a bit better. You’ll need that energy with the 2 girls tomorrow 😊
Mrs Ken I think you’ll find there are many young people on
Medication for depression. Lockdown and being off school for a while has impacted so many. The way to look at is is she’s getting help. There are several posters on here who have gone onto antidepressants (myself included) and it does help. Of course she won’t necessarily always be on them . Times and circumstances change but at the moment she needs help to get though and it sounds like she’s getting it. Just give her lots of love and support.
Wyllow like others here I hope you’re getting some help. I don’t like to think of you struggling on alone. Take care x

Doodle So sorry that you've continued to be very tired over the weekend. I hope your GP will be able to find out whatever the cause and you will feel better soon. You sound worn out. Its been a hard time for you with so many concerns about your DH and medical appts. Then you had that nasty fall and broken wrist. Hope your wrist is allowing you to do bits of your knitting that hat and scarf. The jumper I'm knitting is in navy. I know its a bit of a boring colour really but, as often, I was playing safe when I chose colour. Hope you sleep well tonight and your DH.

MrsKen I think there are probably a lot of kids on ADs these days, but antidepressants are not always for life. She'll be being monitored by her GP or Mental Health Worker. I hope she starts to feel brighter in herself soon (ADs take a few weeks to begin to have a gradual effect).

nadateturbe How wonderful to be near the sea. That sounds a lovely way to spend an afternoon. Did your husband and his son enjoy the film?

ScaredyCat Your sister seems to be doing well. I remember how worried you were when she was ill. She's come a long way since then. Nice that you enjoyed time with your daughter.

SweetpeaSue I hope you get the AD dosage sorted out. It should make a lot of difference to your mood. I hide my insecurities well (it's a real effort). I've had LOTS of jobs . The shortest was 1/2 a day.

Doodle It was mild here, too. Nice enough to put the washing out (finished it off in the drier). Best of luck in seeing the GP tomorrow. Hope you rest well tonight.

Hope ALL BDers have a good night's sleep. I'll be up at about 7, ready for the girls coming (DH is fetching them at 7.30). Love to all x

Night night dear BD's. Yes, help is short. xxx

HVDY as someone else said, I would never have imagined you as shy. Quite the opposite. I too laughed at your job story. I wonder how long it took them to realise you weren't coming back.😁
Scaredycat sorry got mixed up about the ablation. I didn't realise you live beside the sea. I was just thinking today how lucky I am.
Sweetpeasue lovely post to Wyllow3. You put it so well. We are all thinking about you Wyllow3 and I am praying too.
Just noticed you sent some baby knits to a charity, that was a lovely thing to do. And I get the Victoria Wood song😁.
I'm sorry you're feeling so low, probably having continual pain just wears you out, even though its not so bad today. Understandable. But you made the effort and got out for a coffee, well done, I'm sure it wasn't easy.
Pity about the appointment being cancelled, fingers crossed you see the consultant this week. Perhaps you could try a different AD if you can't increase the dose of your present one.
It was easier than I thought starting over. I started a foundation course (did very well) and joined a friendship group.(not a dating group) I actually became events coordinator. I became a different person. I think I married too young before I had developed as a person. Its amazing what you can do.
Doodle It's nice you've become friendly with the lady from church, it's always lovely to make a new friend.
Portraits are incredibly difficult I think. My art teacher advises if using a photo to turn it upside down, it does help. But I'm still useless. I might post a picture some time. I'm very amateur. But art is fun isn't it and absorbing?
I wonder is memory an age problem or do we slow down because less is required of it when we retire. Probably a combination. Tiredness is bound to impact it too. And you've had so much to cope with. It's a problem though if you are chatting to friends or family and can't remember. You feel so stupid. How do you say I'm sorry, I've talked enough. I do hope the doctor can help tomorrow.
EllieAnne That was nice having a walk with your friend yesterday. I hope today was OK for you.
HVD yes, they enjoyed it, all 3+ hours, Killers of the Flower Moon.
Glad you're feeling ok for the GDs tomorrow. Enjoy!
MrsKen I hope others were able to help. I don't have enough knowledge on ADs.
Thinking of you Candy Nanny Fishwife and Allsort Whiff and veryone on BD, and hoping you have a peaceful night. Remembering you all in my prayers.

HVDY Hope you're having a great day with your GDs. That's an early start. Thanks, will see someone about ADs on Friday.
Nadateturbe I too married very young which wasn't that unusual then. Both sisters did too. You were very brave to throw yourself into a job like that. Its surprising what we're capable of when we need to make new starts amd don't have much of a choice, it's true. Please don't worry, I dont have pain continously. Hope you're ok today.

Hoping everyone is ok. I had a terrible dream of being totally alone and family mum/sisters wanted nothing to do with me. I wasnt wanted and had absolutely nowhere to go. Its stuck with me all day, can't shake it off.

Doodle Hope you had some luck getting to see the GP you wanted today and he/she can arrange some blood tests or something.
EllieAnne Thinking of you too and hoping you are ok.

A bit like my recent dream Sweetpeasue, which I couldn't shake off, it'll probably have worn off by tomorrow. You must have been feeling very down while you slept. Giving you a big hug.

Thanks Nadateturbe Feeling better already.☺️ Isnt it strange that we can have far more bad dreams and not many good ones? Given the choice I'd rather be the person that never remembers dreams.
Just been baking again to stop thinking. A Quiche and a mincemeat tart with jar mincemeat left from last Christmas. (Port n Brandy in it) Trying to resist. I must stop this baking - its def not a good idea. 🐘

Glad you're feeling better. I really admire you baking do much Homemade is lovely. The mincemeat sounds delish. Enjoy!

so much.

But yes it's a (lovely) problem. I try not to bake scones and cake at the same time 😁

Hi all. Sorry won’t be with you for a few days I’m in hospital under investigation. Not sure what wi fi will be like.
I’m fine but please take care of yourselves. Xx

Doodle Thankyou for letting us know. Hoping you are ok and you had a bag pre-packed for yourself. We'll miss you. Hope you can enjoy some nice meals made for you. Sending love. Xxx

Hi all.
SweetPeaSue- thank you my Sis is doing quite well at the moment which is like a miracle with all she has and is going through. Glad you got out yesterday - doesn’t really matter what you do as long as you enjoy it. It,ll be a help when you get your ADs sorted. It’s such an effort sometimes to get out of bed but another cuppa and I need to get out!!!!
That was an awful dream - it’s horrible how sometimes you can’t get it out of your mind the following day.
Doodle- could you sit and draw your balcony view - it always sounds so interesting. I love drawing people especially portraits - there are so many lovely photos to work from .
Does your DH have a hobby I can’t remember.
Hope you had some joy from the surgery today- you need some answers.
HVDY- hope you,ve had a good day with the girls.
I too was surprised that you struggle with shyness- I always think of you as very sociable and confident and friendly.
I expect you feel a bit tired this evening but you,ve had a good day I bet. Sleep well.
Nadateturbe- I don’t live by the sea- only wish I did but I think there are some of us who do. I,m glad you have somewhere lovely to walk when you are able.
Think we should all go and help SweetPeaSue demolish some of her baking!!
EllieAnne- hope yesterday had some bright moments for you.
Wyllow- sending love and thinking of you.
I had my Cardio Appointment and was so pleased to see the same person who cardioverted me when I first got AF. He gave us plenty of time and answered all my questions. The echo I had earlier in the Summer showed I have a strong heart with no valve problems. There is some fluid round my heart but they will do another echo next year. He said it was a negligible increase. His advice was to live with it and do things to my abilities. Any procedure would not make me live longer and they have risks.My heart rate is not scarily high just very irregular. I can leave off the rythym meds as they are not working any more. We shall see how it goes.
Love to all those mentioned and those not. Sleep wellxx

nadateturbe I went home from that job, rang them up and said I wouldn't be going again . It was an office job (in the basement), for the education authority, and boring as hell. I was in my 40s then. Ooh, Martin Scorsese's films are always good.

SweetpeaSue Having bad dreams can be really unnerving. I dreamt the other night that I was doing care work (as I am now) and the SIL was helping (she used to be a carer too). She was doing everything wrong, making us late, and then it changed to some outdoor place, where she'd somehow taken her eyes off the patient - who then fell down a lot of steps and into a fountain. Horrible. Your baking sounds delicious .

Doodle How are you? Did you manage to see or speak with a GP at all?

How's everyone's day been?

The girls came, had breakfast, we played board games and dominoes, then went to Morrison's, had a drink and cake, went to a park, then had lunch at home, carved some pumpkins, watched a film and I did them a pasta/chicken/veg/creme fraiche dish they like me to make. They went home half an hour ago. Time now to get comfortable and lounge about . Hope ALL BDers have a relaxing evening x

Scaredycat You're welcome to my baking - wish you lived around the corner!
So glad your sister is doing so well. I'm sure that must help your condition too. I had to look up cardioversion and found there's 2 types-electrical and pharmacological.
It must have been reassuring that you had the same Dr. He sounds so nice giving you time to ask questions and being able to help. Thankyou for letting us know- it helps to understand. I hope after the medical appt you can have a good evening.
My DH likes to copy portraits done by other artists though he has done one from a photo of my aunt and husband. It must be so lovely to have your mum pass that skill to yourself.

Oh HVDY What a full day. Your DGds must love coming to you. My grandson likes to play some boardgames too, we've taught him how to play draughts. You derserve a relaxing night. I always like to get into my nightie after a bath fairly early. That dream you had must have made you anxious. Your SIL must be in your thoughts, which is not surprising in the circumstances. Hope she's doing ok lately.
Doodle sent us a message at 18-57 - - you may have missed it. Hope she gets a bed in quiet ward.

SweetpeaSue They keep asking when we're going to have them AND the baby again . Brother rang earlier, he doesn't like the care home his wife is now in (she went Thursday evening). I told him to ring the place he wants her to go to, which had an excellent CQC rating, ask if they've got a vacancy, then GO and collect his wife (I'll meet him there) and TAKE her to a new place. It's not difficult. He didn't realise he was "allowed" to do that. I've now seen Doodle's post

Doodle I'm glad you're going to be looked after and investigated. Hope the meals are decent. Rest, and take care x

Doodle- thank you for letting us know you are in Hospital.
I do hope you feel comfortable and they are looking after you well. Sending love and hope you have a quiet spot to rest.xx