Black Dog 20

Dear* Doodle*. You have so much to cope with yourself. I was thinking of posting again about it as its been so bad but now you've asked ,feel I can open up. Hope it doesn't sound like a continual moan.
Just got extremely bad a few hrs ago. Like a boring pain in waves through bladder. Took teaspoon oramorph and a 30mg co-codamol. Honestly felt like in labour. Half hr later took 2nd co-codamol. 20 mins later because I was still in agony, took 2nd teaspoon Oramorph and 2 Ibuprofen. I've been so scared as it only settled about 3/4 hr after taking the last oramorph dose.
Been crying and panting with it, breathing exercises useless for it.

I just don't understand. Test strips -no sign of UTI but I took a nitrifurantoin, just in case.

I feel like there's a voodoo doll of myself somewhere and someone's sticking pins in it. Urinating brings on more pain but drank lots of water anyway.
Sorry everyone. Laid here doped up again and finally at some stage of peace. For now.

Just thankyou for listening everyone. I feel so alone.

Doodle It's must be hard for you to post here when you will be so exhausted with it all. I really hope the Dr's will have some good news tomorrow (will pray about it)
Do post whenever you want to . We are all wishing you and your DH can come home soon.x

SweetpeaSue How awful for you. Bladder pain is bad enough when there's an infection, but yours sounds much more unpleasant. I hope it eases off soon - does a hot water bottle help at all? Brother gets very low about things in his life, but he's always been a pessimist. I suggested he sees his GP and gets the dose of his ADs increased (of course, the problems/worries will still be there, but he'd be able to cope better. He alienates people, so he's alone a LOT. Our dad was just the same.

Doodle Son1 is the one with 2 girls and a stepson, Son2 has a baby and a stepdaughter - these blended families nowadays . Hope you get good news from the doctors tomorrow.

EllieAnne Glad you got to church ok. Hope you found someone to chat with. It's blowing like mad outside. (Nottingham).

Hope ALL BDers have a cosy evening. Foxy didn't come last night (2 cats did though) x

Thinking of everyone. So sorry Sweetpeasue for your awful pain. Hugging you.

xx

Night night and hugs xx

Sweetpeasue that pain sounds unbearable. When DH came into hospital he was on cocodamol but they persuaded him to take them separately as they said each co codamol had 500mg of paracetamol which won’t do much on its own. They suggested he took 30g of codeine and two 500g paracetamol as it would be a better pain killer. Not sure if that would be any help to you but just thought I’d mention it.
So hope today is better.
HVDY sorry I couldn’t remember which was which. How nice your son gets on with his stepson. Do the girls get on with him too. Must be nice for them to have a family unit.
Ellie Anne glad you made it to church ok. It’s been really windy. If your son 2 can go to the funeral, could he take his dad?
nadateturbe wyllow scaredycat candy Hope you’re all ok and have a peaceful night.
Things might be looking up here.

nadateturbe How are you and your husband today? When did he have Covid? DH, Son1 and I had effects of long covid after having it 2 1/2 years ago - one side-effect was hair loss (handfuls used to come out, for a few months. Thankfully grown back)

Doodle The girls get on well with the boy - they're quite loud and can be OTT (like their mother), whereas he's quiet, but they seem to be ok together. How are things with your husband?

It's been a lazy day - I didn't fancy aqua aerobics, but my friend wasn't going anyway. Baby Doll was here for 3 hours this afternoon - DIL and her daughter went to the cinema, which was nice for them. They've all just gone, so DH is making us a curry . Hope everyone's ok in this windy weather. x

SweetpeaSue How's the bladder today? x

Doodle Really glad things are starting to look better there. Crossed fingers!
Afraid today been like yesterday. Thankyou for the tip about separating the tablets. I take one co-codamol first(meant to kick in about 25mins after) but its so bad I might go back to having both together as I'm just in pain longer as I wait to see if it helps. Having to take oramorph with them. Thankyou for your concern--you've enough to cope with.
Nadateturbe I hope you and DH are little better and thankyou for the lovely hug.Sending one back.
HVDY Your brother must have completely opposite nature to yourself. It must be difficult to say the least. Nice .you could have baby doll again. I do have a hot water bottle -doesnt help the pain-more a psychological comfort really.
EllieAnneScaredycat**Candy
Wyllow Hoping you're all as well as you can be.

Supposed to have psychology tomorrow but if things are as bad I'll not be able to go. So tired. Thanks all for caring. X

HVDY- love the bee it’s really good.
Your family is a lovely blend - you have done such a good job with your boys- Chubby chops will grow up surrounded with love.
Your poor brother- his mind must be all over the place- he didn’t need that prang on top of his other worries. Hope you had a kindly visit.
SweetPeaSue- you poor thing having to endure more awful pain. Hope you feel better tomorrow so you can have your psychology appt.
Nadateturbe- Hope you start getting your energy back soon.
Also that your DH starts to feel better- hope it isn’t long covid making him feel so poorly.
EllieAnne- at least you made it to Church. Our garden chairs blew all over the garden last night!!
Doodle- so glad things may be taking a turn for the better.
So hope you both go home together soon.
Wyllow- hoping you are getting some restful sleep- so glad you’re posting.xx
Haven’t said before as I always worry something will go wrong but tomorrow my son will come and stay for a week - it’s been almost a year since he was in UK. Can’t wait to give him a big hug.
Wishing all a peaceful night.

Scaredycat I really am so pleased for you tomorrow , that you will see your son and he will be stopping for a while.
Can't imagine how it would feel not seeing your son for a year. Wishing you both the best reunion and hope you have a wonderful week together.x

Warm night waves BD's xx

ScaredyCat I can't imagine what it must feel like to not see your son for a year (I am very lucky). I expect it will be a very emotional reunion. Hope you have a great week with him. x

Surprise News, we’re going home. Complete shock docs say DH ok for discharge, we have meds just waiting for transport.
HVDY that’s good news about your son’s new family. How nice they get on. Will be good for all of them.
Nice for your DIl to take her DD out to the cinema. Good for them to have time without the baby.
Sweetpeasue so sorry you’ve had another bad day. It really is not right. Hope you manage to make the psychology.
Scaredycat must have been very windy where you are likewise here. I was lucky the car missed being hit by a tree branch. Lots of stuff over the roads. Better today though and much warmer.
Oh I have just read your wonderful news. I remember the last time he came. So pleased for you. Have a lovely time. Yes a big hug is definitely in order.
Wyllow sleep well. Ellie Anne and Candy hope you are ok too.

Doodle- that’s the best news- so happy for you both. You,ll be tucked up all cosy soon. Sleep well.
Still waiting for my Son - he’s had a few hold ups so won’t be here til around midnight😩
SweetPeaSue- were you able to have your Psychology appt today. Hope you,ve had a better day pain wise.
HVDY- yes a year is a long time but not as bad as when it was Covid it was nearly 3! I,m glad you have your boys close to you- you deserve it. How was your brother?
Wyllow- hope you have a restful night.x
Nadateturbe,Whiff, EllieAnne,Candy,Nanny,Allsorts and all our new friends sleep well.

Brilliant new Doodle . Hopefully he will get fully better soon. And with your home cooking he will soon gain weight,muscle and strength. Also a cuddle in bed. 🤗

Wonderful news Doodle. Best news ever. Much love.x
Scaredycat Managed appt today.Thankyou. x

Doodle Great news. Glad your husband will be home, at long last. Hope you both have a good rest.

ScaredyCat You didn't see your son for almost 3 years during Covid? That's terrible. Hope he arrives soon. My brother is lonely, fed-up and bored. (no change there)

Hope ALL BDers have a restful night x

Glad to hear todays better news - warm wishes to all BD's xx

How's everyone's day been? It's been sunny here. Met SIL (widow of brother2) and her daughter, had a pub lunch (not very nice). Brother's car has been fixed (very quick service there), so he's happy. DH's hospital appointment tomorrow has been cancelled, put back to the end of March. Been doing my painting (it's addictive). x

HVdY glad you enjoy your painting. I understand about it being addictive. Shame your meal wasn’t too good.
Sweetpeasue glad you managed your psychology appointment. Hope it was helpful.
Whiff thank you p, yes I am trying to build him up,
Scaredycat hope your son is now with you and you’re having a lovely catch up.
Wyllow wish things were looking up for you too.

I have got a hacking cough. Really annoying. It happens every time I spend a period visiting DH in hospitals. Got a chest infection last time too. So, so glad I’m home so at least I can rest in a comfy chair and make hot drinks. So lovely to have DH here again. We’ve had a quiet day.

Night night to all xx

HVDY sorry I forgot to say how beautiful your flower and bee painting was. I am glad you found your love of painting. Hope you find it relaxing and all your worries float away while doing it . It's how I feel about my cross stitch.

Doodle did the hospital give your husband any gentle exercises to do too build he's muscles and strength back up . If not I have a few gentle exercises we do at sit fit that might help him. Also a friend of my found hydrotherapy has helped her. Its at her local hospital and they have hot towels to wrap them in and tea and biscuits before they get dry . She's found how much her muscles have strengthen and her stamina has improved she has cancer , fibromyalgia and discs in her back giving her pain and mobility issues.

Wyllow as always glad to see your post everyday.

Scardeycat hope your son arrived safely. Have a wonderful time with him . I know it will be heartbreaking when he leaves but you always have your memories. And hopefully see him again even ifs it another year. Do you can't remember what it's called but when you talk on the computer and can see them ? I know it's not the same thing but at least you keep in touch. Plus texts ,phone calls and photos.

Thinking about everyone else and hope your pains aren't to bad and wish I had a magic wand to make you all pain free. 🧚

SweetpeaSue Glad you felt able to attend your psychology appointment. Hope it went well.

Doodle That's all you need. I hope the cough soon clears up. Home is the best place for your husband to recover.

Whiff Thank you for that. I started a new painting a couple of days ago. Gerns in glass vases. I'm giving up on that, it's far more detailed than I'd realised. Got a new one on order. Have you done any more baking/cooking for your group lately?

Wyllow Glad you're still posting.

Hope ALL BDers manage to have a decent day. I'm going to go to the day centre place. DH's hospital appointment for this morning (for CT scan of his thyroid) has been cancelled (now March). x

Hello all.
My Son arrived home at midnight- after a journey of many problems including strikes!! Can’t tell you how good it was to hug him again and get a big bear hug back .
I,m having a rest today as I really overdid it yesterday but the joy of seeing my Son and Daughter together was so worth it.
Doodle- it must have been so lovely to wake up and see DH back home where he belongs. Do hope the cough clears up,soon - in the meantime rest and enjoy being together.
Whiff- thank you for your kind post. It’s always sad when he goes but we talk on face time most weeks which is so good to be able to see him. Just happy to have him with us now.
HVDY- that is a long wait for your DH CT scan. He must have felt fed up.
Hope you have a nice lunch today. Yes the ferns sounded lovely but I guess they are quite intricate and also through glass!
SweetPeaSue- hope your psychology appt went well.
Wyllow - happy to see your posts - take care.

Love to allxx