I said goodbye to my beautiful girl today - she was a boxer cross aged 12. I will get another dog, but right now I feel so sad and lost - I keep seeing her at home and in the garden and I talk to her just like I always have, but she is not there and I dread going to bed as I always walked her outside at bedtime and then tucked her up with her toys. I feel tears already just thinking about it. Every one has been really kind and helpful and I am grateful to the vets for their help and advice, but there is a huge gap in my life. She was my friend through Covid - someone to walk and talk to and my constant companion during problems at home and beyond - my Sadie girl - I feel I have let her down, but logically it was the right decision. She just kept being sick and nothing could stop it. Blood tests showed her liver and kidneys were ok, but the vets believed there was a blockage, but she was too sick to go for xray and if it proved that there was a tumour nothing could have been done - so it was the right decision, but it hurts and I miss her so much. I am dreading bedtime and laying there thinking about her. I keep pretnding she is still here and that nothing has changed - maybe that is the only way to get through it.
