Thank you all. This is making me feel better and less desperate.
Tangerine - he did treat me well up to his affair. During the affair he was pretty unpleasant but before it he was a kind man. A bit quiet and grumpy but that is his nature and he is a fond and devoted father and we were good friends we hardly ever argued. He always seemed to dote on me. He was all about work and family.
That’s what i found so disorientating. He told the counsellor that he had been unhappy with me for years, that i didnt care about him, that He fell for OW because she made him feel great and cared about him unlike me. But i did look after him and cared about him just as i always had. None of the stuff he told the marriage guidance man was true. I looked at all our photos and he looked perfectly happy in them. He had never once expressed any unhappiness to me.
Thats why its hard to trust. None of it makes sense so i have no idea now what he's really thinking.
To think that London, or anywhere else for that matter, does not belong to any one demographic
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