I read your post last night Pinktulip and the associated replies from GN members, and I hope that you have found support and strength from this thread. Initially, I thought that, with work, you would both be able to put your long marriage and relationship back together again, but then as I read on, and you told us that he had discussed your health with this OW, in your bed, while you were in hospital, I was beyond words. He is putting all the blame on you; it is your fault that you can't move on from his adultery/ it is your fault you can't trust him when he works away from home, it is your fault that your skin crawls as you sleep in your bed knowing he was in it with his mistress. This man has no thought for your mental health, for your state of mind, is making no efforts at all to mend the marriage. Please think seriously about getting your finances sorted, see a solicitor, and move on. You will never know a day's peace while you stay with him. He is the one who broke the marriage, not you. There are many on here who have been through similar situations, sadly, and they will hand hold and get you through this. He does not deserve you, your so called friend does not deserve you, and if you were to let it be known why you are divorcing him, who could blame you? Get onto a solicitor, don't mess about with the free half hour stuff, just get a good divorce lawyer, get your future secured, and then when you can, fly off to visit your daughter. Good luck