He and I have been friends for years, but this last couple of years we've been getting closer. Well, I mean the way we talk to each other. He lives 240 miles from me and I love him so much. We talk on the phone for hours most nights and he says lovely things to me all the time. We're both 72, he still works very long hours. He would not like to retire because he would feel its just not him. I get it and that's fine of course. He can take time off whenever he likes so he's not tied. For many months we've been talking about getting together and how lovely it will be. On the very rare occasions that we have met up, I get so excited and its so amazing. I'm like a teenager going on a date. We finally arranged to meet at mine a week ago and I couldn't wait. BUT, a couple of days before he called and said that his friend needed him to do some work for him, which would take 3 weeks 12 hours a day. I know that he could easily have said that he'd made arrangements and that he would do the work afterwards. It wasn't urgent. But instead he agreed and then called to tell me. I was so upset because I was so excited that he was coming at last. He's a good man. He would do anything for anyone. I just don't know what to think. I couldn't bear to lose him, but it hurts so much that we can't be together. He says he wants to be with me. I'm too old to be worrying about this stuff, but my marriage was so horrendous, I didn't want to meet anyone else, for my own safety. So after 25 years of being alone and now this, I am finding it hard to cope with. All the missing him and longing to be with him. I could eventually go to his and stay for a while, but would I be in the way when he has to work so much? If I sound a bit confused, its because my emotions are running high at the moment.
