Good for you Namsnanny I had a mean controlling husband for 38 years, and discovered when he died that he was a compulsive gambler, all my life working from 15 to 60yrs old and raising children trying to give them a normal life I did without everything. All my clothes had to come from charity shops I didn't know what it was like to buy myself new clothes. Since he died I have been reborn. New clothes when I want, new shoes, costume jewellery, make up and professional hair cuts, I can even buy a magazine, which he objected to. I didn't have a choice he was violent. He left no pensions, but I manage on my small income. No woman should ever feel guilty about buying herself things, after all do men feel guilty??? They are crafty and cunning and never admit to what they spend there money on.