I suffered depression and anxiety my whole life. Even as a small child I remember being very conscious of saying or doing the wrong thing.
Please don't think I am throwing a pity party as I know we are all on the same boat right now, or at least different boats in the same stormy sea. Missing friends, loved ones, places and normal routines.
Its gotten to the point for me now that speaking to people from a distance just makes me miss them more.
I worked so hard after estrangement to just be able to leave the house easily. To go back into education. To put myself in vulnerable places. To get my dream job. I practically became a social butterfly. Well for me anyway. The more I achieved the less depressed I became. I even learnt to like myself a tiny bit.
Now I feel like it's worse than before. Being at home makes me depressed. Leaving the house makes me anxious.
I don't want to sound self centred here, so many people are going through this again or for the first time. I just hated who I was and I fear this back sliding.
So a question :
How is everyone coping and what are you doing or not doing that helps?
