Think of all the good things that have happened in your life!
You have lived to 60.
You have had successful relationships with people
You have been able to get and hold down jobs.
There are all the folk on here who want to help you.
You may not know them face to face but they want to help you.
May be hard to believe, but there are people out there in a worse state than you, Bereaved, disabled, homeless, existing in a war zone, living in terror of crime..
Count your blessings, you may think that this is hard to do, but there will be many.
If you have a pet, they will bring you comfort and companionship.
Find a real friend, face to face, in whom you can confide.
A trouble shared is a trouble halved!
You have already started down this road.
Carry on!
Things not to do;
DON'T hit the bottle. Alcohol may deaden the pain for a time, but will leave you even more depressed afterwards.
Drugs will damage your physical and mental health.