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Wow smileless safe journey and loads fun!

Yogagirl we not even sending little ones pressys this Xmas 6 years of loads pressies for little ones and gift tokens including 2 Gra daughters. NEver met, that we decided after last rejection and Tor locking door In her dad's face no more!

Never once had courtesy of thank you. I hate not sending for little ones but will send mollie birthday present. I can never ever forget the joy I felt when I held her In My arms as newborn.

Smileless you could try a support group on Facebook a private closed group I belong to one, and with poem like that shame to waste your talents.

Esther took up cause but seems petered out now.

Celegran- thank you for your kind words, I am sorry to hear about your problems.
I know the feeling though, my husband and I used to do whatever we could for our son and family. Then when we stopped, our dil took our gs away. We still tried with him, but it has been on and off again for two years now. I haven't seen him for over a month, most here have it worse.
Please see if this makes time goes by, you start to heal, just a little. You never loose the love for your gc. But, I find that the yo yo effect of now you can see him and now you can't is so very hard. Your expectations rise, you hope. And, then you are slapped in the face and it starts all over again.
I wish we all did not have these problems.
I hope your foot gets better.
Safe travels Smileless. Enjoy the sun!e

makes sense-sorry typo. Must learn to engage fingers before brain.

I know you are traveling, Florida is a wonderful sunny get away (holiday?) for you guys?
If you wish to do something on Facebook, it is pretty easy and a lot of people do need a support group here in the US. There are some. Mostly about how you need to do anything to keep contact with the gs. You loose your integrity, pride. Sometimes the US is too, well never mind.
You could be the administrator (that is what it is called over here.
I belong to a German Shepherd one on facebook (or as we call it fb).
Something to think about. A lot of grams would benefit greatly, you are a kind and most generous person.

Sorry, again-meant for Smileless. OOPS.

Oh thank you msmac, what a lovely thing to say; yes I'llgive it some thought.

It's 4.15 in the afternoon here on our first day. There's plenty ofand it's very hot. Temperatures good for our first week 80's but good chance of showers, still the rain does help to cool you down.

Really good flight, only 8.5 hours instead of 9.5.

It is sooo hard to walk away but you're right Celebgran and msmc being given false hope and constantly riding the highs and lows of this emotional roller coaster just gets too much in the end. I felt guilty to begin with but this current battle is no longer one in which I want to engage. I'm sure there'll be others and so I'm saving my energy for those and for the great day when we'll get to know our gc again. I know it could take years but I really believe that day will come for all of us.

Glad you liked the quote Yogairl; it's brill. isn't it.

Have a good weekend everyoneandfor you all. Had awith my lunch today, well I am on my hols.

Saw this in a shop today and thought I'd share it with you all.

"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain"

Here's some Floridafor you all.

Exactly! We must keep dancing In rain!

Well been sunny here today and we been gardening all day just put roast on and my foot hurting like hell.

Hey ho it will get better?!
Florida sounds lovely of course you have with lunch you on hol!

Saw little Danika again yesterday her daddy did our coving in kitchen what a poppet if only could see my own! Guessing that feeling will never leave me.

Yogi or hope you enjoyed this sunshine today.

Msmac whats weather like in America ? My son flies to Washington today on business for week.

Keep smiling all of you and great see you
Posting from holiday smileless ! X

celebrant-the weather where I live is in in the sixties and some sun, but a chill is in the air. Yesterday, high 50. Washington should be a little nicer. I dread winter.
I also saw an interesting poem in a shop in Key west, Florida:

DARE
Dare to Hope
Dare to Scream
Dare to Fly
Dare to Dream
Dare to Reach
Dare to Climb
For that Last Flight Out
Dare to Leap
Dare to Fall
For that Last Flight Out
Is Within Us All!

It just spoke to me. Don't know why. Some inspirational thoughts in it.

msmac it's spoken to me too.

Morning
Well my ND is flying out for a two week holiday in Tenerife. Looking after her three guinea pigs! I feel bad when she goes away, feel very alone, especially this time being two weeks. Normally I would go away at the same time, but not happening this year, maybe going in November.
I feel bad in a different way these days, the trauma & shock have gone, but now replaced by this deep sadness that never goes away. I've given up trying to forget them, I can't do it & never will. It hurts me so much remembering the email from his mother telling me what a wonderful time she's having watching my Laila grow up & how she is going to make sure I never see her again, this coming from someone who is no relation to my Laila what so ever! I did and said nothing wrong!
My ND & I had a nice lunch on the beach Sunday, I've booked next years yoga retreat, our yogi Xmas dinner in the casino where they have a live singer & dancing till late & we are all going to see the band we support the 'White Onions' on Saturday, so a few things to look forward to [happy]
Keep enjoying your holiday Smileless
Hope your foot is feeling better today Celebgran shame we didn't meet up when you were in my part of the woods.
For all the grans on here , some we haven't heard from for a while, I wonder what happen to Mamamaria & Suebeck to name but a few, I know Nanban was reunited, she was the first post I read on here, took me days to read the whole lot!

Even my Hudl knows I'm not really happy

Thanks for weather report msmac! Steve our son landed ok yesterday!

Yogagirl big hugs you will miss you nice d.

Yes we were on coach trip when we come again must try link up for quick cuppa!

Weather really horrid here wet windy day yesterday heating gone on!
yogagirl been 6 years nearly for me, know the sadness will never really go but determined Tor won't ruin my life and you do get better at coping I promise.

Really really try not to dwell on it, when you find yourself feeling. Sad try and think nice stuff, simple but it does help.

Not good yesterday had run in with local shop as not happy with new vax cleaner is pulling carpet mainly hall one which has stretched but shop were horrid not helpful at all!
Could do e without that! Rosie got on ok at vets except he noticed lump but thinks is fatty tissue oh dear she is very well at moment,

Foot. Ugh so fed up no folk dancing for me last night. Our acquacise shortly though. Have good day yogagirl good you have stuff look forward to. Lulu is on at cliff isn't she ?

Do hear from nanban ow her email , things fragile but lot better than us of course. She is lovely lady.

and a BIG hug for you dear Yogagirl. I know exactly what you mean. The shock and trauma I felt have passed and I'm also keenly aware of the deep sorrow that seems to be all around me and inside me too. Even here in beautiful Florida.

I've felttoday. Yesterday we went to the Magic Kingdom, it was lovely as always and as well as all of the little children running around, I kept seeing things in the shops, picking them up and thinking how much our gc would love them. Dear hubby jokes and says how much money we'd be spending if things were different and that we'd have needed an extra case just to take all the things home. He's trying to disguise his own sorrow but I can see it in his eyes and hear it in his voice.

I know you're really going to miss your ND while she's away but we're all here for you. Wish you could get on line, book a flight and come and spend some time here with us. Hubby could pick you up at the airport. I was going to say we'd need a detailed description but I could just hold a big sign which simply says Yogagirl.

Glad that your son's arrived safe and sound Celebgran, you'll be missing him as well. Sorry your foot is causing so much painI do hope you can get it sorted soon, you must be fed up with it. Our previous dog ended up with several fatty lumps in her dotage. Nothing to worry about though. She did have one removed bec. of its position it could have made it difficult to walk if it had got too big.

Had a nice relaxing day today. Here's somefor you all and don't forget Yogagirl you're more than welcome.

Morning
Thank you Celebgran & Smileless Well you are certainly in the right place, the weather in the UK is awful! Raining & cold, I've put the heating on! I wish I could fly out to join you in Florida & get some enjoy it & try to be happy whilst your there I too am always looking at things and thinking how nice this would be for Laila \ Jack I do try not to think of them but can't get them out of my head, I miss them so much
It's rotten you can't go to your dancing Celebgran hope you can soon . Dogs get lumps as they get older, my lilly has a few little ones, just like we get a few worts, no big deal. I didn't know Lulu was on, bet its all sold out by now!
Well for Smileless as she is on holiday, but must a for you & me Celebgran have a nice day everyone x

All kicked off big time on scarlet's page! [Shock]

Can't get on Scarlett's page ?! Link didn't work.

We off for weekend are not going via daughters place only upset us.

Yippee will enjoy even if can't dance too much!

Yogagirl hope you ok without nice daughter keep strong and smiling chat. NExt week scan on Monday big hugs yogagirl and you too
smileless hope you enjoying it all try not be too sad xx

Enjoy your w/e away Celebgran you can have some now
I'm seeing the 'White Onions' tonight with the girls, so I'll be having my then or maybe a G&T

Glad be home did enjoy but tired, managed lot dancing foot protested bit!

Venue Richardson's is bit basic, clean, food not great.,
Entertainement is so good so many live bands, anyone remember troggs, animals, or kinks? sat off kinks they call themselves well they all played, plus, another band, and singer bob keeley who we really like and guitarist singer Chris mezza. Who was fantastic.

Oh dear hated my MRI scan on Foot, went on 30 mins and soooo noisy !
Gosh,was so glad when it was over, just hope they can help find out cause pain.

Hope white onions were good yogagirl. Plenty
Smileless you lucky one is sooo cold wet here,

Oh dear girls we met couple not seen for about 3 years guess what they moved to kesgrave where. My daughter lives, did flare it up bit. Last time we saw them we ere obviously hoping to see mollie so badly, now we kinda accept we won't,

Refuse to be down we must carry on smiling!

Well my hubby remembers the Troggs, Animals and Kinks Celebgran. Glad you had a good time, hubby is jealous. He says his old time favorite is 'You really got me' haven't the faintest idea what he's talking about.

Hope you soon get the results of your scan and that they can give you some much needed and deserved relief.

Haven't heard of White Onions either Yogagirl,hope you enjoyed it and you're not missing your lovely daughter too much. A bit cloudy here today. We're having a lazy day as we're all exhausted. Went to Islands of Adventure and were there for 7 hours. Did the Hogwarts ride twice; I could do that all day.

Got a little pressie to out in our gc's memory box. Hubby wanted to get him a cuddly toy and leave it on the door step but I know it'll get returned and would probably be sent with another nasty letter so I'd rather not.

Yes, we must keep going Celebgran, getting the most out of life.

Floridaandfor you all. Unfortunately, the over here are rather too good. xxxx

How lovely to hear from you smileless enjoy[cakes] you worked so hard at gymn!

Will your nice daughter be home soon yogagirl.

Troggs were famous for wild thing smileless is good one!

Thank you I googled plantar fasilitis and do say they think is about degeneration rather than inflammation also linked to obesity mmmmm supposed to heal after year whatever!? Well had it 6 monthsl. Halfway healed?!

Wow sounds exciting smileless I would be useless onRides !

Swam just 6 lengths today after acquacise. Also had a freddo tiny Cadbury choc bar mmmmmm first for ages. Healthy tea coming up fish, stuffed with tomatoes and new pots and sweetcorn. No desert!

Guess what ladies my little Rosie is 11 sooo proud of her not her birthday was last march just had senior moment and thought she was only 10 been such year didn't clock the extra figure! nervous cut imagine world without her !

Morning girls
And you are a little girl at heart by the sound of it, going on the rides over & over Smileless You couldn't resist getting M a little gift then, he will get it one day & love you for it
My ND has another week in Tenerife, seems she's been gone ages now, but had a lovely surprise yesterday as she phoned me & we had a lovely long chat, it really warmed my heart. Not been sleeping well again as miss my D&GC so very much
Your Rosie is the same age as my lilly then Celebgran lilly is still like a puppy & looks young, they do westie. Hope you sort out your foot & get some pain relief soon
I'm off to a birthday lunch today, so should be good. Saturday night with the 'White Onions' was great, they are a local band so you wouldn't have heard of them.

Oh how kind of your daughter to ring ygagiro.

Hugs and . Must be very hard on your own at night times . I woke up today dozed off and dreamt was going up bugsby way Tor road in coach and saw her at window! It shows how much she in my brain ,, was on outing with myngood friend Anita club and had cancel going to their social tea yesterday so connection and also we drove very near to Tor although took different route at weekend,
Also meeting couple who have moved to her village! Guess was on my mind.

Glad white onions were good! Does see ages since you nd went away but she soon be home!

We had lovely meal with great friends last night and guess what they gave us nearly new cleaner we bought one thr we hate and they got 2 as his poor mum passed away this summer. How kind was that?
So we giving them our spare little freezer is empty in garage as they would t take penny for it.

Have good day and smileless take photo of all things you buy little one I do and insert them in mollies blog. is hard.

I get worse on this iPad yogagirl you know I meant you! Lol

Hello ladies. It's good to see that you're keeping yourselves busy.

Well that's positive isn't it Celebgran, if your foot problem usually lasts a year and you're half way through, only 6 months to go, is that it then? no advice regarding pain management, exercise etc?.

Your daughter is lovely Yogagirl, 'phoning you while she's on holiday. She obviously realises how hard it is for you while she's away. I din't think our son understands how much more difficult our situation is with him living so far away.

and birthday wishes for little Rosie Celebgran. Our friends go home today so we will have our final week in Florida, just the two of us. It's been a great fortnight but will be nice to have some time to ourselves. We'll take a great big deep breath just before we leave, and hope that'll see us through the next 6 months until we come back.

Not sure what we'll be getting up to but no doubt lying around the pool will figure significantly.

Have a good weekend one and all.