....get out of bed around 9.00am, slouch downstairs in my dressing gown, make a couple of slices of toast. Sit and look out the window at grey skies and rain. Think about my children and their children, wonder what they're doing and wish them a lovely day. Hope the phone will ring. Cry.
I know this from experience of the last two Christmas Days.
I also know what the response from some GN'rs will be - 'go and do voluntary work', 'go for a long walk', 'reach out', 'stop feeling sorry for yourself'. Thank you but it doesn't really help.
Being on your own at Christmas, when you ache with the pain of wanting to be with those you love most, is an indescribable feeling.
Somewhere else on GN it was suggested that those of us in a similar situation (and there will be more than I realise) should meet up here in Wonderland and go for a long, mad sleigh ride!
I reach out to say you're not alone, there are others who dread the Family Festive Season - will be having no turkey dinner, no opening presents, no decorations...
Here's an alternative. Put on your paper hat girls and jump on the GN Sleigh, then hold tight!
Coming to a stop near you on 25th December 2015
I've got another 'keen'... Ouch!