I know I don’t often post on here, but I feel like a rant and I’m annoyed. A really good friend has overstepped the mark I feel. She has grown up sons. Eldest son lives with her and younger one married with a 1year old son. All through lockdown she has told me of her neighbour letting her family members from other households into her house and friend was feeling it because all she could do was FaceTime. I’ve made do with that with my 2 DGD’s, one age 3 and the age 1. Friend felt she was missing out and GS would forget her, which is how I feel. But as the lockdown eased just over 2 weeks ago, friend and family couldn’t wait at least till the Monday even, she went on the Friday, then Saturday too and has been x2 weekly since, even gone in the house and sat GS on her knee, played with him on the floor too, and has tea too. I go visit my GD’s and because I don’t want them to come up to me I just talk to them through the window. It’s about keeping everyone safe and I’m then not tempted to pick them up. Before lockdown I saw GD’s weekly and had the younger one staying overnight quite regular because of sons partners working hours. Also friends sons mum in law visits them too, not at the same time, but she too goes in the house. Friend knows she’s doing wrong and when I rang her after BJ ease lockdown Thursday so anyone on their own can form a bubble with one household I said there’s no change for me there again as I’m married. He is my DC step father and between us we adopted a 9 year old boy who we fostered first from birth. We are all he’s ever known. She knew I wasn’t happy, suppose I’m feeling envious of her, but I know it’s wrong too and wouldn’t even put myself in that position. I’ve also a DD who lives in supported living and it’s her birthday tomorrow, with 3 other ladies. We are going over for a short time to sit in the back yard, socially distancing though to see her with her present and card. I said to friend I can’t even hug her, she sort of said well maybe it would be possible, but I said point blank no. They have to follow guidelines and I have to think of DD safety as well as ours too. We’ve also dealt with the fact that 12 years last weekend was when we lost mum and also it would have been her birthday yesterday and I find that difficult each year, but more so this year. Friend knew all this. She turned up late this afternoon with flowers and a small bag of chocolates, kept my social distance though, but was very choked up and could hardly speak at first. I’m so finding things hard right now like many, many more are. AIBU, or does anyone else feel like this.