It sounds like a classic Philip Larkin situation.
Newist Good for you to be able to reveal this.
Given how you have described your childhood I get the impression you were brought up in a situation where you were expected to go along with believing your families lies and keeping secrets. That is a dreadful burden to lumber children with.
It is important to remember that all mothers are not wonderful. It seems that being prepared to acknowledge that, you might at least not feel guilty about how you feel about her now.
The world will not fall apart because you have told the truth about her.
Goodness know what your mother's up bringing was like probably also very difficult for her to find parenting so difficult.
I am not defending her but we are at the mercy of a lot of what we have experienced.
Do you recognise any similarities in personality between your difficult daughter and your mother?
Keep strong its a lot of stuff to deal with at once. (((hugs)))
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