Good morning Mick and all GN's on a still, cold dark morning in North Yorkshire . Can just see the outline of the tree against the sky. I gave up trying to get back to sleep and got up about 4.30am , struggling with cramp and mind spinning on numerous plates in the air, with very few solutions appearing to any of the varying problems. However today is the doctors appointment at about 9.30am, fingers crossed it isnt cancelled or moved . I have tried to write a succint list of symptoms as they appeared as one thing affects another etc. Trying to be positive and hope the doctor can give me some miracle idea to at least minimize the wretched cramps, if nothing else.
It was a very busy day yesterday , not helped by my knees joining the go slow, which would not allow me to do anything in the garden, or even walk down to the washing line. However mentally it turned out to be a better day. I really struggled to get showered , dressed and to the meeting on time. Felt exhausted before I even got there, and the wretched roads and paths full of potholes made the journey worse than usual. However it was worth it. There were various points of discussion that were sorted and I was able to add a couple of things people had not considered etc, so on the whole that part of the meeting went very well. Then the lovely yoga teacher turned up and it was just what I needed.
It was a struggle for me to do a lot of the exercises as I was in a lot of pain, but did what I could, and she is very good at suggesting alternatives for a sitting pose , if I am unable to do the standing one. I felt sad when they were doing a tree pose as I looked back at my dancing past especially my ballet lessons when I could do them all with ease and no pain and that difficult one where you bring the arm over the head and lean sideways whilst letting your other arm slide down the opposite leg. But the effort is to bring the arm over the head, moving only sideways,not forward or back at thesame time.
Anyway it was all very good with the breathing exercises etc and there was a real sense of togetherness and calm as we sat or stood in a circle. It ended with a relaxation and I felt a much needed calmness and the feeling of safety amongst friends, a very good antidote to my physical feelings at the time.
Then it was a swift trip home and a quick sandwich ready to dash off to the library for the meeting with the phd student. The researcher overall was also there, and there were a couple of apologies from people who had not been able to come, then another lady after she had read all the screed about what it involved and what it did not include decided she didnt want to continue and left. So it ended up with 4 of us and the researchers . One man and three women, but physically a good cross section. We all knew each other from a group that meets once a month, and he is pretty fit and able to walk and do exercises etc in groups or alone, Another lady was there with a rollator, who does not have a car, and manages to get about walking with the rollator, to as much as she is able to get to. I was the worst in that way arriving on my yellow peril and struggling even to move across to sit at the table. When we filled in forms about the exercise that we are able to do etc., we were asked first to fill in as we were at that time, so that we looked at exactly what we had managed to do this week etc. So given how bad this week has been my offerings were very poor. Hadnt managed to swim once, and not even managed to do any walking round the garden etc. It was frustrating as I wanted to write them out a better week when I can swim or walk a bit etc. However it really was very good for this purpose as it happens.
They are researching how much exercise people do and what stops people either starting or keeping up with exercises and what could be done to encourage people to increase and keep doing whatever exercises they did. My main point, backed up by the others was that the absolute basic obstacle was transport for a start. Here on one road that has a lot of bungalows with disabled people near the hospital, the buses now stop after 3.30pm. So without a car or someone to take you home you might get to an afternoon class but would have to have a taxi home, if you could get one. The poor quality of the roads and paths with potholes etc etc., so it was very useful as their main concerns where why people did not go, or stopped going to classes and this basic point of access was not seen as a major point. Then the costs of everything going up so that even if you could get there , with the cost of living even a reasonable fee to join a class or go to a gym becomes something you may no longer afford etc.
Anyway we all talked and filled in forms and contributed and naturally as one of us mentioned such as lack of buses then the others confirmed this with their own stories of missing buses or cancellations at specific times meaning they could not get to the classes. We all could show how patterns of days helped or didnt in the case of keeping up exercises . There was much writing and smiles from the researchers as what we said obviously sat well with their premises. So I hope that we provided good information that will get councils etc to consider these wider points which so affect our chance to do things. We were then awarded a Tesco voucher for our troubles, which was very nice , but I would have done it anyway as felt it was important to get across the views to fit and healthy council officials who probably all have cars .
Came home feeling exhausted and hadnt expected the cleaners as I had sent them a message and not heard from them. But as it happened it was very good that Debbie had been able to come, and she had done a grand job hoovering and cleaning floors and other things that are difficult for me , including opening the beetroot jar!! The mystery was solved as to why no reply as I had sent the message to a phone that Jessie had lost and now got a new one, so we were at cross purposed. So alls well that ends well, and I just had some soup that I had in the freezer and a sandwich, Just felt too weary to make a proper meal.
Rubbish night as usual, added to the fact of lots of thoughts about different things whirling around in my mind. So gave up and got up thinking about todays efforts. The sky has now lighted a little but is very misty now, so dont know whether it will clear to some sunshine or stay like this all day. So I shall have to allow time to get to the surgery , and take the mac and the sunglasses and may need both!
I hope that the doctor will have some good ideas to help me get some sleep most of all, but I then plan to get the local paper on the way home and have a much needed quiet day, letting myself relax a bit, doing some yoga whilst I remember it, checking up on the calendar what appointments I have next week and fingers crossed not have a lot on, and hope that my knees will improve so that I can do some gardening. We shall see. I also will be able to look back at the posts for the last couple of days as I need to catch up with the news and views.
I am hoping all the early risers are enjoying their cups of tea or coffee and have a smooth day in front of them.The daffodils are really out now and cheering the morning. I hope that there are flowers and blossom to greet us all today and lift our spirits. Enjoy your day everyone